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Marianne, Quit CoachNov 30, 2017 @ 9:26 AM
Posts: 47
Joined: Oct 31, 2008 (1:37 PM)
Hello Margie55,

I see you are on the new site and we have responded to you there.  And will continue to talk to you there.  

Hope your doing better today!  

Marianne

Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

Vix1976Nov 28, 2017 @ 8:07 PM
Posts: 302
Joined: Aug 16, 2017 (5:52 PM)
Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Margie55 I forgot the new site went live today. You should’ve got an email so you’ll have to log onto it!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 77
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,155
Amount Saved: $831.60
Life Gained:
Days: 7 Hrs: 3 Mins: 6 Seconds: 25

Vix1976Nov 28, 2017 @ 8:04 PM
Posts: 302
Joined: Aug 16, 2017 (5:52 PM)
Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Hi Margie55 I’ve missed you. I don’t know if there is something in the air or what but I’ve been battling as well. I even got an extra month of champix to help me out as I was nervous about going it alone. Remember your tools and use them. I know you’ve got this lady. Stay strong and tell that nicodemon where to go!!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 77
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,155
Amount Saved: $831.60
Life Gained:
Days: 7 Hrs: 3 Mins: 6 Seconds: 5

Margie55Nov 28, 2017 @ 6:01 PM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Hi everyone,
 
I haven't been on here since November 1.  Just hard to fit everything into my day and I had been doing good.  I don't know what happened, but today I am craving really bad.  I'm just leaving work and I was justifying buying a pack on my way home...thinking I can just have one...what a load of crap.  So I'm going to go home, and I'm not going to smoke.  I can do this.
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 105
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 420
Amount Saved: $210.00
Life Gained:
Days: 12 Hrs: 22 Mins: 14 Seconds: 47

Vix1976Nov 02, 2017 @ 12:17 AM
Posts: 302
Joined: Aug 16, 2017 (5:52 PM)
Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Totally agreed treepeo. My bff just texted me tonight to talk about how bad she’s craving. We chatted for a while and then she felt a lot better. A great distraction.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 50
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 750
Amount Saved: $540.00
Life Gained:
Days: 4 Hrs: 15 Mins: 26 Seconds: 13

TreepeoNov 01, 2017 @ 7:27 PM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
I agree.  The support we give each other here is invaluable.  But I also find that coming here helps to keep us accountable.  And it serves as a reminder that things can change in an instant with just one slip, so we have to stay vigilant.
 
Glad your cravings are finally subsiding.  Whew, what a relief. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 307
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,675
Amount Saved: $921.00
Life Gained:
Days: 42 Hrs: 9 Mins: 26 Seconds: 48

Paul, Quit CoachNov 01, 2017 @ 4:26 PM
Posts: 33
Joined: Apr 02, 2009 (5:55 PM)
Hi Margie55,

That's a really good sign, not liking the smell; and equally great to read is that you know the value of having meaningful and consistent support around you.

Let's all get through the rest of today, smoke free.

Paul

Smokers' Helpline Online Team

Vix1976Nov 01, 2017 @ 1:44 PM
Posts: 302
Joined: Aug 16, 2017 (5:52 PM)
Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Hi Margie55 Glad you’re handling your cravings and continuing to say NOPE. It’s hard at times but so worth it. And yes the support positivity and reinforcement on this site with all our friends definitely makes a difference! I forgot sometimes to come on because I’m mostly doing well but then I’ll see the icon on my phone and think gotta go check it out as it helps me stay strong!! Keep up the good work!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 49
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 735
Amount Saved: $529.20
Life Gained:
Days: 4 Hrs: 14 Mins: 27 Seconds: 39

Margie55Nov 01, 2017 @ 11:12 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
I just scrolled back and my last post on here was October 11 and then nothing until October 26 which was my 10++++++ craving day.  So 2 weeks without being on here and that's what happens! 

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 78
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 312
Amount Saved: $156.00
Life Gained:
Days: 9 Hrs: 14 Mins: 14 Seconds: 9

Margie55Nov 01, 2017 @ 11:10 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone,
 
Yesterday I passed by a smoker and the stench was horrible.  Usually I like the smell of it, but not yesterday.  I was happy when I didn't like the smell because usually I love the smell and it's a trigger.  So hopefully the cravings will start to pass.  I still have my moments, but the cravings have reduced from 10+++ less than a week ago down to about a 2 today.  So that's a relief.
 
I do know that I need to keep coming on here every day though.  I started having the really bad cravings after not being on here for a while.  
 
Have a good day everyone,
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 78
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 312
Amount Saved: $156.00
Life Gained:
Days: 9 Hrs: 14 Mins: 13 Seconds: 57

TreepeoOct 31, 2017 @ 10:24 PM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hey Margie55,
 
I was hoping your cravings would have passed by now.  Darn it, you are going through a rough patch.  But it will end eventually, so keep hanging tough.
 
You know what?  Most often, when I see smokers now, they don't act as triggers anymore.  I just say to myself, "I'm glad it's not me who has to stand there to get my fix".  Remember what it was really like.  You were standing on the street by yourself, in some recessed area where you wouldn't be in the way, puffing on your cigarette, while the rest of the world went by, maybe giving you dirty looks.  Not very appealing, huh? I sure don't miss those times.
 
You will be fine, Margie55.  You are strong enough to ride this out. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 307
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,675
Amount Saved: $921.00
Life Gained:
Days: 42 Hrs: 6 Mins: 32 Seconds: 54

Lillian, Quit CoachOct 31, 2017 @ 8:03 PM
Posts: 40
Joined: Sep 22, 2008 (12:42 PM)
Hey Margie55, You are proving it one day at a time that you don't need them. In spite of the cravings and in spite of the thoughts you are managing, 77 days proves it. Keep on, one day at a time, you can do it and it will get easier and easier. Lillian

Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

Margie55Oct 31, 2017 @ 3:48 PM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good afternoon everybody!
 
I'm still having cravings but I haven't caved.  Yesterday I drove right by the store I usually bought my smokes at and I thought about stopping, but didn't.  I see somebody smoking and that's definitely a trigger, but I just keep telling myself that I don't need this **** in my life anymore.  It helped me to think about that even though things are good, I'm still craving.  Yes, I used smoking as a way to escape the bad, but I also smoked when things were good.  I just wanted to smoke every chance I got, but that's because I was addicted and on some level and at some part of my brain I still am addicted.  But the smarter part of my brain needs to tell the addicted part of my brain that I don't need this **** anymore.
 
 Have a good day everyone and Happy Halloween! 
 
Margie55 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 77
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 308
Amount Saved: $154.00
Life Gained:
Days: 9 Hrs: 11 Mins: 52 Seconds: 13

TreepeoOct 27, 2017 @ 9:44 PM
Posts: 768
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Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Margie, I'm not surprised that even though your life is good, you are tempted to smoke.  Think about it.  We didn't just smoke when we were going through stressful times.  We smoked to "reward" ourselves for a job well done, or to "celebrate" when life was good.  In fact, we smoked for any reason at all that we could come up with.  But it was all a crock.  The real reason we smoked was because we were addicted, and so we could not make any kind of move without having a cigarette first.  That's what smoking does to us.  It makes us totally dependent on the product.
 
Keep hanging in there, Margie.  This, too, shall pass.  You have worked hard to earn your freedom.  Guard it at all costs.  It is precious. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 303
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,575
Amount Saved: $909.00
Life Gained:
Days: 41 Hrs: 17 Mins: 14 Seconds: 31

Sarah, Quit CoachOct 27, 2017 @ 8:26 PM
Posts: 9
Joined: Feb 25, 2015 (8:59 AM)
Congrats, Margie55, for getting yourself through what sounds like a difficult day. 
Reminding yourself of the reasons for your quit - and how far you've come - all came from inside of you, and got you through it. Positive self-talk can be a very effective strategy, and you did it Margie55! 
Have a wonderful, smoke-free night everyone!

Sarah
Margie55Oct 27, 2017 @ 5:05 PM
Posts: 66
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Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Thank you everybody for your kind words. I'm still craving today badly and I still thought about just going and buying a pack but I didn't. I just keep telling myself that I have too much good going on in my life right now to mess things up. That's what is so confusing. I'm doing well and feeling secure in myself and my relationship and I'm planning on retiring next year and I have so much to look forward to so why do I want to sabotage that? I guess it's the Nicodemon talking to me! Thanks again, Margie55

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 73
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 292
Amount Saved: $146.00
Life Gained:
Days: 9 Hrs: 0 Mins: 18 Seconds: 52

Smobered UpOct 27, 2017 @ 12:48 PM
Posts: 1574
Joined: Jul 03, 2010 (6:38 AM)

Age: 71
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: retired
Hobbies: Cottage in the summer, Florida in the winter, Photography, NOT SMOKING ☺
Hi Margie.....Geez, by the sound of it, a lot of us have been having a crave attacks recently including myself.  I've had some anxious moments as my puppy had surgery and I'm getting ready to head south and my sister has some issues, yaddah, yaddah, yaddah.  Talk about "trigger overload".  I must commend you on your own wonderful advice to yourself.  You, above all, should be and looks like you are, your own best cheerleader. Every time you overcome a craving, you tick another one off the list.  Each time you tick one off,  you grow stronger and your nemesis, Nicodemon, grows weaker.  I can tell you this through experience, that there will be more triggers but with your obvious strong resolve, you will manage them your usual good sense and strong resolve.
 
Keep on keepin' on!
 
Your quitter pal,
Smobered Up.
 
I am an addict aspiring to lifelong smobriety. 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/15/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 377
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 9,425
Amount Saved: $4,241.25
Life Gained:
Days: 46 Hrs: 21 Mins: 17 Seconds: 11

The buck stops HERE!

JeyanOct 27, 2017 @ 10:20 AM
Posts: 511
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Age: 39
Gender: Male
Country: Canada
Occupation: Working
Hobbies: Walking, Roller skating, yoga, family
You're absolutely correct Margie55. That's how I felt too before quitting. I was sick and tired of lying to myself. I was sick and tired of the fact the addiction had a hold of me to a point that it would even drum up my emotions wild even for a small incident to quench it's nicotine thirst. Once I realized that I had an addiction problem, and this addiction was ruing not only my life, but also my relationships, health and well being, etc., quitting became so easy! You feel the same way as I did too before I started hard to fight to put an end to my addiction, which had a hold of my life, life events, life moments, and had me like a slave. I no longer wanted to be a slave to the Master(the worst of it's kind), and raced to quit. In the end and over these 3 years my internal strength has come out strong to win over this addiction of mine. I am strong, and we are strong! Let's kick this habit out for good for the rest of our lives! Stay Strong! Say Nope!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/16/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 376
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 3,760
Amount Saved: $2,256.00
Life Gained:
Days: 55 Hrs: 7 Mins: 39 Seconds: 55

Vix1976Oct 27, 2017 @ 12:20 AM
Posts: 302
Joined: Aug 16, 2017 (5:52 PM)
Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Oh Margie55. I’ve been craving bad too but you sound like you were really having a tough time. Remember the helpline too if you’re having a hard time. I’m so glad you didn’t smoke. You don’t want to give up those hard fought for 72 days. Remember how bad it was in the beginning, I know you’re stronger now and don’t want to have to go through that again. Stay strong friend!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 44
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 660
Amount Saved: $475.20
Life Gained:
Days: 4 Hrs: 2 Mins: 6 Seconds: 59

TreepeoOct 26, 2017 @ 7:33 PM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
I'm just seeing this now, otherwise I would have responded sooner.  I am so sorry to hear that you are having such major cravings.  I know how hard it is to deal with them.  And it's frustrating, too, because like you said, you have 72 days under your belt.  What did you do to deserve this?
 
Well, the answer is, nothing.  It is this stupid addiction.  Honestly, it is one of the hardest addictions to break.  Just when things are going along smoothly, bam, the cravings come out of nowhere.
 
I am so glad that you were able to resist, Margie55.  That takes a lot of guts and determination, so GOOD FOR YOU!  I hope the cravings ease off soon.  You have worked too hard, and come too far, to give in now.  And trust me, the cravings WILL pass.  And then you will realize that you are really proud of yourself for staying strong and keeping on course. 
 
Keep kicking butt, Margie55.  As you know, it is so worth it! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 301
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,525
Amount Saved: $903.00
Life Gained:
Days: 41 Hrs: 13 Mins: 38 Seconds: 15

Emily, Quit CoachOct 26, 2017 @ 7:30 PM
Posts: 11
Joined: Jun 25, 2015 (1:29 PM)
 Hi Margie55,

I'm sorry to hear that you've been having a challenging time with cravings these last couple of days. But I am happy that it seems to be getting better and you've come to the website for help. 

What were your reasons for quitting? Sometimes reminding yourself of those reasons can help to keep you motivated. 

Congratulations on 72 days. You've come a long way and have a lot to be proud of. 

If you would like to talk don't hesitate to call into Smokers' Helpline to speak with a Quit Coach. 

Have a great evening,
Emily 
Margie55Oct 26, 2017 @ 5:20 PM
Posts: 66
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Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
I feel better already.  Just coming on here and reading for a bit really helped.  I don't need this crap in my life any more.  No more lying to myself and no more allowing this addiction to lie to me.  Nothing will be gained from me going and buying a pack of smokes, except for guilt, shame and a long list of other negative emotions and turmoil in my life.  I don't need this anymore.  
 
Thank you,
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 72
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 288
Amount Saved: $144.00
Life Gained:
Days: 8 Hrs: 21 Mins: 25 Seconds: 4

Margie55Oct 26, 2017 @ 4:36 PM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Help!!!!
I'm having such bad cravings yesterday and today!  It's horrible! I want so badly to go and buy a pack since yesterday.  The only thing I can think of that may have triggered it is a visit from my daughter the night before last and she smokes and I haven't seen her in a while (my relationship with her is strained) and I used to bum smokes off her all the time.  It was the next day that I started having unbelievably strong cravings.  And I'm on day 72!  I'm really ashamed to admit this, but this is how crazy this addiction is...I don't want to buy a pack, but I want to smoke so bad that I have started looking for butts on the ground that aren't fully finished.  I found some yesterday, but then I couldn't find a lighter.   That's so disgusting!  Maybe I should just go buy a pack.  
 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 72
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 288
Amount Saved: $144.00
Life Gained:
Days: 8 Hrs: 21 Mins: 19 Seconds: 38

Margie55Oct 11, 2017 @ 11:24 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning,
 
Day 57 and all is well.  The cravings are still present today but have really lessened in severity.  What helped me through it is knowing that the voice in my head saying "you can have just one" is lying to me.   That is the addiction talking.  I know that I can't have just one.  If  I give in and have one it will lead to another few months of struggle, frustration, lies and heart ache and then I will just have to start over again. 
 
Have a great day everyone!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 57
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 228
Amount Saved: $114.00
Life Gained:
Days: 7 Hrs: 0 Mins: 46 Seconds: 25

Vix1976Oct 10, 2017 @ 10:02 PM
Posts: 302
Joined: Aug 16, 2017 (5:52 PM)
Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Hi Margie55 Glad you had a good smoke free vacation I think work is always a trigger of sorts so cheers to winning the lottery hahaha. Glad you’re back!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 28
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 420
Amount Saved: $302.40
Life Gained:
Days: 2 Hrs: 14 Mins: 22 Seconds: 19

TreepeoOct 10, 2017 @ 8:41 PM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
Welcome back!  I hope you had a great vacation.
 
I'm glad that you were able to make it through such a major crave without giving in.  Good for you.  I know that must have been really difficult for you.
 
You have 56 days under your belt, and before you know it, you will have reached two months.  Hang in there, your cravings will decrease as time goes on. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 286
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,150
Amount Saved: $858.00
Life Gained:
Days: 39 Hrs: 8 Mins: 56 Seconds: 9

Sophia, Quit CoachOct 10, 2017 @ 8:21 PM
Posts: 3
Joined: Jun 20, 2017 (10:53 PM)
Congratulations Margie55, you made it! The holidays can be a really challenging time, along with the first day back to work, and you made it through. What helped you most through the times of the cravings? You are doing very well Margie55 and we're rooting for you. Cheers to another smoke-free day Sophia Quit Coach

Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

Margie55Oct 10, 2017 @ 8:00 PM
Posts: 66
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Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
I'm back!  
 
Day 56 and all is well, sort of.  I had my holiday and enjoyed myself and didn't even think about smoking at all, no cravings. Then yesterday was the last day of my holiday and I had the worst craving imaginable.  Thinking about wanting to search for a smoke (good thing I didn't have any) and wanting to go get a pack.  It was horrible.  10/10 craving.  Today it's down to a 5/10 and I made it through the work day.  So work is a definite trigger!  Without a doubt! 
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 56
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 224
Amount Saved: $112.00
Life Gained:
Days: 6 Hrs: 22 Mins: 53 Seconds: 40

Vix1976Sep 22, 2017 @ 12:08 AM
Posts: 302
Joined: Aug 16, 2017 (5:52 PM)
Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Hi Margie55 Have a great holiday and keep that nicodemon at bay. It may take a bit to get your subconscious on board but you'll get there.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 9
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 135
Amount Saved: $97.20
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 20 Mins: 22 Seconds: 10

TreepeoSep 21, 2017 @ 10:22 PM
Posts: 768
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Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hey Margie55,
 
I think that a lot of us have smoked for so many years that it is a real mental adjustment to quit. And because we stay strong during the day, that nicodemon tries to attack us at night when we are more vulnerable.  But you will find that with time, that will stop happening.  The nicodemon will realize that you are not going to cave and he will have no choice but to back off.
 
I hope you have a great smoke free vacation! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 267
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 6,675
Amount Saved: $801.00
Life Gained:
Days: 36 Hrs: 18 Mins: 23 Seconds: 53

Lillian, Quit CoachSep 21, 2017 @ 2:30 PM
Posts: 40
Joined: Sep 22, 2008 (12:42 PM)
Hey Margie55,

Success is yours this morning! So far, you're overcoming that part of your brain and staying in charge. That must feel good. 

I hope it makes your vacation all the more sweeter because you know you can relax into it without having a cigarette control you!

Congrats Margie55, look forward to seeing your update in October,

Lillian


Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

Margie55Sep 21, 2017 @ 12:30 PM
Posts: 66
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Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone!
 
Day 37 and all is well!  I had a craving in the night when I woke up and I thought "I can have a smoke when I get up" and then quickly remembered that I don't smoke anymore.  It's like my subconscious is taking over while I'm sleeping and letting the cravings in.  On a conscious level I know that I don't smoke anymore, but somewhere in the more primitive part of my brain there's a memory of it and a craving for it.  So I need to not let the primitive part of my brain win!  I may not be on here for a while because I generally use my computer at work and I am going to be on holidays for two weeks.  You may not see a post from me until October 10, but I vow to keep counting the days and keep staying smoke free one day at a time.  October 10 will be day 56 and then before you know it I will be at 2 months!
 
Have a great day everyone!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 37
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 148
Amount Saved: $74.00
Life Gained:
Days: 4 Hrs: 14 Mins: 20 Seconds: 54

TreepeoSep 20, 2017 @ 10:37 PM
Posts: 768
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Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
I love your insight.  You have encountered a problem and already worked out some solutions.  That is so impressive!  Good for you.
 
Congrats on 36 smoke free days! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 266
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 6,650
Amount Saved: $798.00
Life Gained:
Days: 36 Hrs: 15 Mins: 7 Seconds: 48

Marianne, Quit CoachSep 20, 2017 @ 7:09 PM
Posts: 47
Joined: Oct 31, 2008 (1:37 PM)
Hello Margie, Lessened cravings, good to hear. Like you said, for the Mondays, having strategies in place is ideal- stretches, water and praying. You will find more variety over time yet your off to a great start with what you shared. Admiring your intent to keep moving on in your journey. Onto day 37 now. Counting your blesses as you say and rewarding self are important- any thoughts of what you can do to acknowledge your continued success? Best Wishes, Marianne

Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

Margie55Sep 20, 2017 @ 10:29 AM
Posts: 66
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Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone!
 
Day 36 and all is well!  I didn't have any cravings yesterday and so far so good today.  I just had a draggy Monday afternoon which was what caused the craving.  I need to look for new tools to deal with those times when I feel draggy so that I don't revert back to the desire to smoke.  I can do stretches, I can drink water, I can pray, I can find something to do as a distraction, I can count my blessings and I can remember all the benefits of not smoking and how bad I would feel if I went back there.  I can't go back.  I have to keep moving forward on this journey.
 
Have a great day everyone!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 36
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 144
Amount Saved: $72.00
Life Gained:
Days: 4 Hrs: 11 Mins: 10 Seconds: 24

TreepeoSep 19, 2017 @ 7:27 PM
Posts: 768
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Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
Yes, that's the way it goes sometimes.  Go figure.  But you rode it out, and you are on Day 35!  Way to go!  You are getting the job done - good for you! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 264
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 6,600
Amount Saved: $792.00
Life Gained:
Days: 36 Hrs: 11 Mins: 23 Seconds: 24

Smobered UpSep 19, 2017 @ 5:45 PM
Posts: 1574
Joined: Jul 03, 2010 (6:38 AM)

Age: 71
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: retired
Hobbies: Cottage in the summer, Florida in the winter, Photography, NOT SMOKING ☺
Hi Margie....
I'm sure I speak for all of us when I say "way to go" with crushing your craves and..........
 
 
Your quitter pal,
Smobered Up,
 
I am an addict aspiring to lifelong smobriety.


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/15/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 339
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 8,475
Amount Saved: $3,813.75
Life Gained:
Days: 42 Hrs: 4 Mins: 41 Seconds: 11

The buck stops HERE!

Margie55Sep 19, 2017 @ 12:56 PM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone,
 
Day 35 and all is well.  After I just finished exclaiming yesterday that my cravings have subsided, I started having cravings again yesterday afternoon.  The only thing I can attribute it to is Monday afternoon blahs.  I felt okay in the morning but started to feel draggy in the afternoon.  Part of what smoking did for me was a "pick me up."  But that feeling of energy after a smoke was very short lived and it was a nervous kind of energy, not a productive kind of energy and as soon as it passed I started thinking about the next "pick me up."  I feel better this morning and no cravings yet today.
 
Have a great day everyone!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 35
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 140
Amount Saved: $70.00
Life Gained:
Days: 4 Hrs: 8 Mins: 32 Seconds: 40

Nadia, Quit CoachSep 18, 2017 @ 4:27 PM
Posts: 58
Joined: Mar 07, 2017 (1:51 PM)
Hi Margie,

It's great to hear how well you are doing and how much your life is changing for the better. Yes, it is a powerful addiction but you are beating it.... Congrats to you! 
As Treepeo mentionned, you will enjoy it more and more as time as time goes by and you see all the positive changes

Have a smoke free day everyone!.
Nadia, Quit Coach
JeyanSep 18, 2017 @ 1:59 PM
Posts: 511
Joined: Nov 24, 2014 (9:56 AM)

Age: 39
Gender: Male
Country: Canada
Occupation: Working
Hobbies: Walking, Roller skating, yoga, family
Great news Margie55!! we can do this!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/16/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 337
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 3,370
Amount Saved: $2,022.00
Life Gained:
Days: 49 Hrs: 14 Mins: 42 Seconds: 36

TreepeoSep 18, 2017 @ 11:23 AM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
I am happy to hear that things are going so well for you!
 
It really is freeing not to smoke, eh?  You realize how much time you wasted smoking.  I used to stand outside after work to have a smoke before getting onto the subway.  Now I don't have to do that, and it's great!  And don't you find it's easier to talk to people when you don't have to worry about stinking of smoke?  And not having to deal with constant cravings rocks!  I mean, the list of benefits of quitting goes on and on.
 
Margie55, I think that as times goes on, it's going to hit you more and more how terrific it is to be a non-smoker.  We definitely made the right choice when we decided to quit. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 263
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 6,575
Amount Saved: $789.00
Life Gained:
Days: 36 Hrs: 6 Mins: 58 Seconds: 32

Margie55Sep 18, 2017 @ 10:03 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone!
 
Day 34 and all is well!  I had a good weekend and went to functions where there were smokers and it didn't even bother me.  I didn't even want one.  I'm so relieved to not have to deal with it anymore.  I have more free time, less laundry and more peace of mind.  No more planning and scheming of ways to find "alone" time.  No more worrying about whether anybody can smell it on me or not.  No more waves of anxiety through my body as I crave my next fix.  It's such a powerful addiction and it's an addiction I don't need in my life anymore.
 
Have a good day everybody!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 34
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 136
Amount Saved: $68.00
Life Gained:
Days: 4 Hrs: 5 Mins: 15 Seconds: 53

Smobered UpSep 15, 2017 @ 12:09 PM
Posts: 1574
Joined: Jul 03, 2010 (6:38 AM)

Age: 71
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: retired
Hobbies: Cottage in the summer, Florida in the winter, Photography, NOT SMOKING ☺
Way to go Margie!   I am back too, after a long absence.  It took me a lotta, lotta, tries, but just like you......I didn't give up. 
Nice to meet you......I'll be happy to share your journey with you.......through thick and thin.  You're on a roll now.......this is the one!  
 
Your quitter pal 
Smobered Up.


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/15/2013
Smoke-Free Days: 1431
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 35,775
Amount Saved: $16,098.75
Life Gained:
Days: 177 Hrs: 17 Mins: 23 Seconds: 53

The buck stops HERE!

Marianne, Quit CoachSep 14, 2017 @ 8:13 PM
Posts: 47
Joined: Oct 31, 2008 (1:37 PM)
Hello Margie55,

Way to go on your "30" day milestone- an amazing achievement!  And noting that the cravings have subsided.  

Here is to not letting your guard down as you say.  And feeling even better as time goes on.   

Looking forward to your continued success and well-being!  

Marianne

Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

TreepeoSep 14, 2017 @ 7:29 PM
Posts: 768
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Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
Congrats on 30 days!  Way to go.
 
You have passed the worst stage of the quit.  Now, you are right, it is a matter of staying quit.  Like Vix1976 said, we have to live by NOPE.  As long as we do that, we will be okay. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 259
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 6,475
Amount Saved: $777.00
Life Gained:
Days: 35 Hrs: 18 Mins: 52 Seconds: 35

TomF1Sep 14, 2017 @ 5:10 PM
Posts: 291
Joined: Feb 19, 2014 (9:53 PM)

Age: 57
Gender: Male
Country: Canada
Occupation: Network/Broadcast Design
Hobbies: Cars, Music, Movies
Wow, congratulations on 30 Days Margie! That's impressive, and inspirational.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/23/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -8
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -200
Amount Saved: $-96.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -114564

Just For Today

Vix1976Sep 14, 2017 @ 4:16 PM
Posts: 302
Joined: Aug 16, 2017 (5:52 PM)
Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
You can do it. Just remember the hardest part of the cravings is behind you. And remember NOPE not one puff ever! If you think about having one look at your quit meter and ask yourself do you really want to give up all that you've worked for and start over? I know you don't and I know you can keep doing this great work! GO Margie55 GO!!!
Margie55Sep 14, 2017 @ 3:09 PM
Posts: 66
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Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good afternoon everyone!
 
Day 30 and all is well!  I continue to feel better and better and the cravings have essentially subsided.  I think of it sometimes but the thought passes and it's not really a craving anymore just kind of an acknowledgement that I don't smoke anymore.  The goal now is to STAY quit.  I have quit many times in the past but when I let my guard down and give in to a craving on a bad day thinking that I can have just one and the next thing I know I'm smoking again.  So I need to accept that I can't have just one.  
 
Have a good day everyone!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 30
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 120
Amount Saved: $60.00
Life Gained:
Days: 3 Hrs: 18 Mins: 10 Seconds: 32

Margie55Sep 13, 2017 @ 11:16 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone!
 
Day 29 and all is well!  I didn't even have a craving this morning!  What a relief!  I'm also finally starting to feel more motivated to start exercising a little bit and eat healthier so that I can lose some weight.  It's so true that when we address one aspect of our lives it leads to other positive changes.  It's progress not perfection.  Until I lose the weight and get into better shape, I'm working on trying to accept myself as I am, belly fat and all.  The smoking was feeding into my self loathing.  I was already feeling so bad about myself that I may as well smoke as a way to try and  escape all the negativity and bury my fears and insecurities.  But then the smoking was making me feel worse so it was a vicious cycle downward into a pit of despair.  Thank you to all of you for helping me get out of the pit!
 
Have a great day everyone!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 29
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 116
Amount Saved: $58.00
Life Gained:
Days: 3 Hrs: 14 Mins: 46 Seconds: 25

TreepeoSep 12, 2017 @ 10:23 PM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
I love what you said.  This is a journey of me learning to be kind to myself.  I think we can all relate to that.  I have found that the process of quitting smoking has led me to look at other aspects of my life that I might want to change as well.    I realize now that when I smoked, I did not value myself or my life.  Now I am trying to change all of that.  Who knew that the act of quitting smoking would lead to so many other positive changes? 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 258
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 6,450
Amount Saved: $774.00
Life Gained:
Days: 35 Hrs: 12 Mins: 40 Seconds: 4

SarahSep 12, 2017 @ 8:32 PM
Posts: 495
Joined: Oct 19, 2009 (7:39 PM)

Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Insurance Broker
Hobbies: Reading, Walking my Suzie, Non Smoker
Hi Margie55,
 
Congratulations on 28 day !!!!  you are doing great  .  I too suffer with depression and anxiety and find that smoking only made it worse.  Keep up the great work !!


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 6/5/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 100
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 2,500
Amount Saved: $1,200.00
Life Gained:
Days: 9 Hrs: 0 Mins: 42 Seconds: 50

Every Day Smoke Free is a Celebration !!

Margie55Sep 12, 2017 @ 11:56 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone!  
 
Day 28 and all is well!  I'm continuing to feel better and better all the time.  I'm finding that because I feel better about myself some of my depression symptoms are lifting as well.  The smoking was a form of self-sabotage and caused me to continuously berate myself but it was self-induced.  Why do I feel the need to sabotage myself?  This is a journey of me learning how to be kind to myself.  
 
Have a good day everyone!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 28
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 112
Amount Saved: $56.00
Life Gained:
Days: 3 Hrs: 11 Mins: 55 Seconds: 39

Sarah, Quit CoachSep 11, 2017 @ 1:33 PM
Posts: 9
Joined: Feb 25, 2015 (8:59 AM)
Hello again Margie55 - great to hear from you again. As you go up against these common triggers and cravings, you are not only managing these tough situations, but you are OVERCOMING them! Treepeo makes such a great point that these triggers will become a thing of the past as you continue to use your tried & true strategies. Those triggers are no match for you, Margie55! Way to go! Sarah
TreepeoSep 11, 2017 @ 12:24 PM
Posts: 768
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Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
Congratulations for staying strong and keeping your quit.  That is really hard to do when you are facing triggers, so you should be really proud of yourself.  And look at you.  You're almost at your first month!  Way to go!
 
You know, it's weird, but when I pass someone smoking on the street, it can sometimes be a trigger.  But when I am at my sister's place, and she smokes, I can only take so much of it, and then I feel sick.  I can't wait to get home so I can breathe properly.  I only quit eight months ago, but what a difference it has made.
 
Margie55, you will find that as time goes on, triggers will become less intense or will disappear completely.  And cravings will become fewer and far between.  And every time you resist, it makes it easier to handle in the future. You will become a pro at saying No.  But keep giving yourself a pat on the back for a job well done.  You are strong and courageous, and you are getting the job done!


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 256
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 6,400
Amount Saved: $768.00
Life Gained:
Days: 35 Hrs: 7 Mins: 59 Seconds: 28

Vix1976Sep 11, 2017 @ 10:49 AM
Posts: 302
Joined: Aug 16, 2017 (5:52 PM)
Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good job staying strong Margie, And you've almost got a month under your belt. Wow so awesome. My quit is in two days and I'm getting scared so keep posting all your great stuff as it really helps my determination as well!
Margie55Sep 11, 2017 @ 10:33 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone,
 
Day 27 and all is well!  I went to a big party on the weekend with lots of drinking.  I don't drink but when I had to walk past the smokers outside a few times that was a huge trigger for me.  But I didn't smoke.  Then the next day I continued to have cravings.  But I didn't smoke.  Seeing others smoking really triggers me.  But if I remember that they all probably want to quit as well that helps.
 
Have a good day everyone!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 27
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 108
Amount Saved: $54.00
Life Gained:
Days: 3 Hrs: 8 Mins: 49 Seconds: 52

TreepeoSep 07, 2017 @ 9:16 PM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
I am so happy to hear that things are going well for you!  You have already passed the 3 week mark.  Well done!
 
By the way, I can relate to wanting to rebel against the world.  Sometimes I would light up for that very reason.  But that was such a stupid thing to do, because the only person who knew I was trying to rebel was me!  So now, the odd time when I feel that way, I do something a bit self-indulgent.  I may pick up some rather expensive ice cream, or I might buy myself a new game to play.  Whatever I choose, it is still true that only I know I am rebelling in some way, but nevertheless, I get some satisfaction out of it! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 253
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 6,325
Amount Saved: $759.00
Life Gained:
Days: 34 Hrs: 19 Mins: 59 Seconds: 50

NewoportunitySep 07, 2017 @ 4:42 PM
Posts: 1212
Joined: Jun 08, 2015 (5:13 PM)

Age: 47
Gender: Male
Hi Margie55
 
I really love your Determination, Keep the good work and the day's will pile up.
Enjoy to be Free!
 
Congrats


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 6/8/2015
Smoke-Free Days: 822
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 49,320
Amount Saved: $22,194.00
Life Gained:
Days: 132 Hrs: 11 Mins: 39 Seconds: 23

EVERY DAY IS A TRY, NEVER GIVE UP

Margie55Sep 07, 2017 @ 11:22 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone!
 
Day 23 and all is well!  The cravings have pretty much subsided completely now.  This morning I didn't even think about it.  I just got up and had my coffee and did my usual routine and went to work.  My usual routine now doesn't include a cigarette!  I also sat out on the deck after work yesterday and had my diet coke without even thinking about a smoke!  There's another addiction (lol) but I am tackling one thing at a time, diet coke is next when I'm ready!  I chewed my last nicorette gum yesterday and decided not to buy more.  Not that I'm recommending that for others, you see my smoking was very light and off an on. Some days I would have 6, other days none at all and most days only about 3.  My physical nicotine addiction was minimal, it was mainly a psychological addiction.  I needed to have that "f*** it" moment in my day where I was rebelling against the world.   The whole time I was harming myself and I knew it but the addiction was more powerful than my fear of harming myself.  I just don't need cigarettes in my life at all.  They don't help me at all, they just cause grief.  The addiction used to trick me into thinking that I could have just one.  But I can't have just one.  If I have one then the obsession to have another and another sets in.  I'm so relieved that I don't have to deal with that anymore.
 
Have a good day everyone!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 23
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 92
Amount Saved: $46.00
Life Gained:
Days: 2 Hrs: 21 Mins: 13 Seconds: 3

Sarah, Quit CoachSep 06, 2017 @ 3:20 PM
Posts: 9
Joined: Feb 25, 2015 (8:59 AM)
Thank you for sharing all of the benefits you are feeling, Margie55 - so wonderful to hear your energy and mood is improving, and the cravings are becoming more manageable as time goes on. Its incredibly motivating to hear what time can do for a quit. Have a happy day >2! Sarah
Vix1976Sep 06, 2017 @ 12:49 PM
Posts: 302
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Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Great attitude Margie. And yes this group is great. I tell everyone about it who is quitting, it's an amazing support system and a great distraction which is why I'm online right now. Quit date is in a week and the cutting back is getting harder. Also stopped my 'just woke up' smoke today and it was hard! So glad you posted about how you felt during those times as I'm feeling the same now and it's great support that I read this to remember it gets easier and so much better. The coughing has gotten so much better just from reducing so far! Thanks again for your posts Margie, they're sure helping me as I follow you and I'm sure you're helping so many others!!
Margie55Sep 06, 2017 @ 10:16 AM
Posts: 66
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Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning!
 
Day 22 and all is well!  I am feeling so much better.  I have more energy and I feel more cheerful and also more calm.  I can focus better and think more clearly.  The cravings are lessening dramatically.  This morning I was up for about half an hour before I even though of it.  The first couple of weeks I was really draggy and tired and stressed, but it passed, not suddenly but gradually and now at week three, heading into week four, I am amazed how much better I feel.  And different this time than when I quit back in January.  I did it on my own then without the help of this on-line support group and it's much easier with the support.  Counting the days and monitoring my progress is very helpful.  Days turn into weeks, weeks will turn into months and then months will turn into years and before I know it, quitting smoking will be a distant memory.  This time I am determined to stay quit.  I gave a smoker a ride last night and boy did he ever smell bad.  I don't need that in my life anymore.
 
Have a great day everyone!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 22
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 88
Amount Saved: $44.00
Life Gained:
Days: 2 Hrs: 18 Mins: 9 Seconds: 25

Sarah, Quit CoachSep 05, 2017 @ 8:13 PM
Posts: 3
Joined: Feb 24, 2015 (11:42 AM)
Yay! Happy three-week anniversary, Margie55 - it really is an important milestone, and its awesome to hear some time off helped you have time to rest and relax. Continue to take it one day at a time. Pat on the back to ya! Sarah
sleeplessmom10Sep 05, 2017 @ 8:00 PM
Posts: 24
Joined: Jul 12, 2017 (11:53 PM)
wtg Margie!!!!! am behind ya but rooting for us both  ;)
Vix1976Sep 05, 2017 @ 3:52 PM
Posts: 302
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Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Keep up the great work Margie55!!!
Margie55Sep 05, 2017 @ 12:20 PM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone,
 
Today is day 21 and all is well!  I didn't even really think about it this weekend.  I had four days off work and that really helped to reduce my stress level.  I'm really looking forward to the time when I don't even think about it anymore. But I need to stay on top of this or it will creep back in when I'm not paying attention and I will relapse.
 
Have a good day everyone!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 21
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 84
Amount Saved: $42.00
Life Gained:
Days: 2 Hrs: 15 Mins: 28 Seconds: 46

JeyanSep 01, 2017 @ 12:08 AM
Posts: 511
Joined: Nov 24, 2014 (9:56 AM)

Age: 39
Gender: Male
Country: Canada
Occupation: Working
Hobbies: Walking, Roller skating, yoga, family
Good job Margie!! Keep it up!!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/16/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 320
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 3,200
Amount Saved: $1,920.00
Life Gained:
Days: 47 Hrs: 0 Mins: 44 Seconds: 33

Sophia, Quit CoachAug 31, 2017 @ 3:51 PM
Posts: 34
Joined: Jun 19, 2017 (9:15 PM)
Way to go Margie55! Disruptions to routine (especially morning ones) can be a huge trigger, but you made it through and problem solved in the moment-YESSS Tim Horton's drive thru.  Keep it going Margie55
 
Sophia
Quit Coach

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TreepeoAug 31, 2017 @ 3:35 PM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
I know exactly what you mean about having a routine, especially in the morning  before work.  Having no power would have freaked me out!  I give you lots of credit for getting on with your day.  Good for you.
 
Happy Day 16! And many more. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 245
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 6,125
Amount Saved: $735.00
Life Gained:
Days: 33 Hrs: 20 Mins: 5 Seconds: 19

Margie55Aug 31, 2017 @ 11:29 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everybody,
 
Today is day 16 and all is well.  As usual, I am still finding mornings the hardest, especially this morning because I went to make my second cup of coffee and realized I had no power!  That threw my whole routine out the window and I'm big on routine.  Anyway, that's what Tim Horton's drive thru is for! lol and I'm at work now and everything is fine.
 
Have a good day everybody!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 16
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 64
Amount Saved: $32.00
Life Gained:
Days: 2 Hrs: 0 Mins: 44 Seconds: 13

TreepeoAug 30, 2017 @ 5:19 PM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
Congratulations on making it 15 days!  That is truly terrific!
 
I wouldn't worry about using the gum.  We all do what we have to do to stay smoke free.  That is the most important thing.  You are just starting out, and need time to find alternate ways of dealing with stress, etc.  What you get from gum is nothing compared to what is in even one cigarette.   
 
You have made it past the two week mark, Margie55.  Keep taking it one day at a time.  You are doing great! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 244
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 6,100
Amount Saved: $732.00
Life Gained:
Days: 33 Hrs: 17 Mins: 1 Seconds: 26

Valerie, Quit CoachAug 30, 2017 @ 3:33 PM
Posts: 49
Joined: Jun 07, 2017 (7:51 PM)
Way to go Margie55! 

Implementing a new routine or response around specific triggers/barriers takes time. Be kind to yourself through this process. Keep using the nicotine gum, as needed, while you are working on finding new strategies that will help you cope with stress.

Kindly,
Valerie

Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

manderson4Aug 30, 2017 @ 1:24 PM
Posts: 670
Joined: Sep 29, 2016 (10:42 AM)
Age: 51
Gender: Male
Country: Canada
Hobbies: Cycling, Computers
Congratz on 15 days Margie55.  One of the problems of quitting is stress and as a smoker you always reached for a cigarette and craved the nicotine.  Now you have to train your body not to need it.  When I was using lozenges I would switch them up with life savers when I felt I was ready to decrease my nicotine.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 4/16/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 136
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 10,200
Amount Saved: $7,479.66
Life Gained:
Days: 22 Hrs: 6 Mins: 38 Seconds: 28

One Down One to Go

AegleAug 30, 2017 @ 12:54 PM
Posts: 153
Joined: Sep 15, 2014 (9:13 PM)

Age: 52
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Congrats to you on 15 days smoke free! Way to go! Before you know it a month will have passed.  You are an inspiration to me for sure!  I look forward to hear of your continued success.
 
 
You Can Do This!
Aegle


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/28/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 2
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 24
Amount Saved: $17.28
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 7 Mins: 39 Seconds: 4

Everything is going to be okay

Margie55Aug 30, 2017 @ 12:25 PM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Day 15 and all is well.  I'm still finding the mornings hardest but I'm getting through it.  I definitely chew more nicotine gum when I'm working.  Yesterday I had about 6 pieces and today I'm going to try to reduce that amount because on the weekend I didn't chew any at all.  Obviously I don't really need the nicotine physically, I just think I need it emotionally and stress brings that on.  
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 15
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 60
Amount Saved: $30.00
Life Gained:
Days: 1 Hrs: 21 Mins: 55 Seconds: 20

Vix1976Aug 29, 2017 @ 3:52 PM
Posts: 302
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Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good job Margie55 and way to defeat that addiction talk! Keep it up, you got this!!
Margie55Aug 29, 2017 @ 1:44 PM
Posts: 66
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Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone,
 
Today is day 14!  I'm doing well.  I still crave a little bit in the morning.  It's like I forget momentarily that I have quit and then when I remember that I quit the craving passes.  I used to crave and then start thinking about getting a pack and then start justifying why I needed it.  Now I just get the craving and that's where it stops.  I don't progress to thinking about buying a pack anymore.  So that's real progress.  Thank you all for your kind words and support.
 
Have a great day everyone!
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 14
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 56
Amount Saved: $28.00
Life Gained:
Days: 1 Hrs: 19 Mins: 9 Seconds: 15

Paul, Quit CoachAug 28, 2017 @ 3:11 PM
Posts: 33
Joined: Apr 02, 2009 (5:55 PM)
Thank you for sharing Margie55.

Hopefully the wonderful support we see in this community will help to ensure that none of you ever have to go through the pain of living with COPD, or worse, passing on far too early.

Keep the quit everyone.
Paul

Smokers' Helpline Online Team

Vix1976Aug 28, 2017 @ 11:35 AM
Posts: 302
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Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Hi Margie55 You're so right and I do the same thing. What an awful way that we reward ourselves. Do you have something else to reward yourself? I'm having trouble finding something little that I can do daily to reward myself so would love some suggestions if anyone has some? Congrats on 13 days. You got through hell week and are almost done heck week as well. Keep the momentum going!!
TreepeoAug 28, 2017 @ 11:02 AM
Posts: 768
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Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
Congratulations on your 13 days!  That's terrific.
 
I used to smoke as a "reward" to myself, too.  But what a joke that was.  You're absolutely right.  Smoking is not a reward.  It just feeds into our addiction and hurts us.  I think it is wonderful that you are honoring your cousin by quitting smoking.  She would be really proud of you for doing this.


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 242
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 6,050
Amount Saved: $726.00
Life Gained:
Days: 33 Hrs: 9 Mins: 33 Seconds: 0

Margie55Aug 28, 2017 @ 10:37 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Sorry, day 13, just counted again! lol

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 13
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 52
Amount Saved: $26.00
Life Gained:
Days: 1 Hrs: 15 Mins: 50 Seconds: 48

Margie55Aug 28, 2017 @ 10:35 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone,
 
Day 14 already!  I haven't posted in a few days.  Things are going well.  I have been having some anxiety at times and vivid dreams.  The cravings are subsiding.  I didn't even chew any nicorette gum over the weekend.  I did have one this morning though.  I still find that work days are harder than weekends.  It's like I used smoking as a way to motivate or reward myself.  But it's not a motivation or a reward.  In fact it's debilitating and destructive to my well-being.
 
I just feel like mentioning that my user name is inspired by my cousin whose name was Margaret and she was born in 1955 and she died in 2010 a few months before her 55th birthday.  She died of COPD and she was a heavy smoker for many years.  She was a very special person to me and after she died her spirit told me to appreciate my good health and live my life to the fullest.  So every time I smoked I thought about that and felt guilty for it. 
 
Have a good day everyone,
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 13
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 52
Amount Saved: $26.00
Life Gained:
Days: 1 Hrs: 15 Mins: 50 Seconds: 35

Vix1976Aug 25, 2017 @ 4:12 PM
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Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good for you Margie55 and it's so awesome that you are recognizing your addiction when it talks to you. Isn't it amazing how smoking has controlled us, isn't the freedom from is so liberating!! Keep it up, you've got this!!!!!
Margie55Aug 24, 2017 @ 12:27 PM
Posts: 66
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Age: 53
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Good morning,
 
Day 9 and everything is going well.  Some cravings this morning but they were mild and they passed.  I slept well last night and I feel good today.  I'm looking forward to the day when there will be no cravings and just relief.  I'm not there yet, but there's light at the end of the tunnel.
 
Have a great day everyone,
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 9
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 36
Amount Saved: $18.00
Life Gained:
Days: 1 Hrs: 4 Mins: 21 Seconds: 31

Sophia, Quit CoachAug 23, 2017 @ 3:08 PM
Posts: 3
Joined: Jun 20, 2017 (10:53 PM)
Congratulations on Day 8 Margie55, keep on going.  Glad to hear that last night was a more restful night, you've found a pleasantly flavoured nicotine gum to use, and that the increase in dosage of medication has been helpful.  Your body is still adjusting to the changes, so quite normal that the cravings are still there, and could be for another few weeks, but will continue to get less frequent and less intense.
Congrats again on your smoke-free Wednesday Margie55
 
Sophia, Quit Coach

Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

JeyanAug 23, 2017 @ 10:34 AM
Posts: 511
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Age: 39
Gender: Male
Country: Canada
Occupation: Working
Hobbies: Walking, Roller skating, yoga, family
Congrats on day 8 Margie55!! Keep it up!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/16/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 311
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 3,110
Amount Saved: $1,866.00
Life Gained:
Days: 45 Hrs: 18 Mins: 32 Seconds: 48

Margie55Aug 23, 2017 @ 10:31 AM
Posts: 66
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Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning,
 
Thank you again for the words of encouragement.  It really helps.  Today is day 8.  I have cravings mainly in the morning and after work but they subside.  I went and bought some more nicorette gum (cinnamon, yay! it's the best flavour and the only one I like) because I think that I need one in the morning and late afternoon as a pick me up.  I had a more normal sleep last night, about 7 hours and I feel fairly well rested.  I always get tired in the afternoons, whether I'm smoking or not.  I think part of the reason I want to smoke is for a "pick me up."  Interestingly I am also dealing with depression and anxiety for the past 15 or so years and I am on two medications to treat this.  I recently increased the dosage of my medications and that seems to be helping.  I often wonder if it is possible that I crave the nicotine because of something that is missing in my brain, like maybe dopamine?  I know that I have an addictive personality, that's for sure.
 
Have a good day everyone,
 
Margie55
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 8
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 32
Amount Saved: $16.00
Life Gained:
Days: 1 Hrs: 1 Mins: 11 Seconds: 43

Nadia, Quit CoachAug 22, 2017 @ 9:00 PM
Posts: 4
Joined: Mar 11, 2017 (1:52 PM)
Hi Margie 55,

Congrats on being smoke free for 1 week! Glad you are feeling good today. Being tired could be part of withdrawal symptoms and your body is going through a lot of changes. 
It's really good to hear that you slept well last night. Remember to be patient with yourself and get as much rest as you need, listen to your body with regards to the nicotine too...if you feel you need less, try and see how you respond to it. 

Keep up the good work.

Nadia, Quit Coach
Margie55Aug 22, 2017 @ 12:06 PM
Posts: 66
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Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning,
 
Thank you everybody for the words of encouragement.  It really helps.  Today is one week and I am feeling good.  Just really tired.  I slept for 11 hours last night!  I chewed one of my nicorette gums this morning so now I have one left only.  I have made it several days in a row without the gum so I know that I don't really need it and I find I do better without any NRT at all because when I have nicotine in my system sometimes I think it makes me crave more.  I felt that I needed one to wake up this morning because after my long sleep I was still a little groggy even after 3 coffees!  
 
Have a nice day everyone! :)
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 7
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 28
Amount Saved: $14.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 22 Mins: 27 Seconds: 39

SarahAug 22, 2017 @ 10:35 AM
Posts: 495
Joined: Oct 19, 2009 (7:39 PM)

Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Insurance Broker
Hobbies: Reading, Walking my Suzie, Non Smoker
Hi Margie55,
 
 
Welcome Back,  this is a wonderful Group to give support.  A week in already WTG !!


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 6/5/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 78
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,950
Amount Saved: $936.00
Life Gained:
Days: 7 Hrs: 2 Mins: 18 Seconds: 55

Every Day Smoke Free is a Celebration !!

TreepeoAug 21, 2017 @ 8:22 PM
Posts: 768
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Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
You are on Day 7 already?  Wow, that was fast.
 
I know what you mean about work.  It was the same thing for me.  So this is where you have to learn to change your routines.
 
You will find you need more rest for a while.  Trying to conquer an addiction is hard work, and can be more exhausting than we anticipated.  I found that I was waking up a few times a night so never got a really good night's sleep.  So instead, I napped when I could.  It's not the same as sleeping through the night, but it helped me get through the first month or so, until I was able to sleep through the night again. 
 
You are doing great Margie55.  Keep up the good work, and you will feel better and better. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 236
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 5,900
Amount Saved: $708.00
Life Gained:
Days: 32 Hrs: 11 Mins: 42 Seconds: 41

Margie55Aug 21, 2017 @ 10:27 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning,
 
I'm now on day 7 and doing well. I didn't post for the past few days because for some reason my home computer wasn't working right.  So I'm back at work this morning and cravings are a bit worse because somehow I associate work with smoking.  Have a smoke, go to work, have a smoke after work as a reward.  So it's worse on work days than on weekends.  I haven't had any gum since day 3.  I have 3 pieces left in case of emergency, but the cravings on the weekend were so mild I didn't need one.  I'm feeling a lot better already.  More tired than usual but I'm just trying to get lots of rest.  I feel a lot calmer and happier already.  
 
Margie55 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 6
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 24
Amount Saved: $12.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 19 Mins: 19 Seconds: 54

TreepeoAug 17, 2017 @ 9:21 PM
Posts: 768
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Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Way to go, Margie55!
 
Unfortunately, even though you were a light smoker, you will still get cravings.  But like you have already discovered, they will pass.  They always do.  Thank goodness for gum, eh?  So much better than a nasty cig. 
 
You know, I went to the liquor store after work today.  A man walked by me and stood next to me looking at the shelf.  He was a smoker.  I could smell him coming, and the smell was so strong it almost made me gag.  I can't believe that we could not smell ourselves or each other when we smoked.  Because now, I just can't stand the stench that comes off of smokers.  The smell of smoke itself doesn't really bother me, but the smell coming from smokers does.  Go figure, eh? 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 232
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 5,800
Amount Saved: $696.00
Life Gained:
Days: 31 Hrs: 22 Mins: 37 Seconds: 53

Emily, Quit CoachAug 17, 2017 @ 7:50 PM
Posts: 11
Joined: Jun 25, 2015 (1:29 PM)
Hi Margie55, Congrats on 3 days smoke free. Half way through the first week and you are already noticing some benefits! How wonderful. Have a great evening, Emily
Margie55Aug 17, 2017 @ 12:07 PM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning,
 
Today is day 3 and I am still doing well.  I had a craving first thing this morning when I woke up.  It's like I forget that I don't smoke anymore.  It was a stronger craving than the past 2 days but it passed quickly.  I always remember every time I quit that day 3 is a hard day.  I'm chewing gum a few times a day when I get a craving and that helps.  No patch this time because I was only smoking about 3 or 4 cigarettes a day, depending on how much alone time I had! lol  Last night it was so great being able to kiss my boyfriend without worrying whether he could taste it or not.  I smoked menthols and I brushed my teeth very thoroughly and used mouth wash and I'm pretty sure he never noticed, but I'm probably wrong.  Anyway, it's so nice to be able to kiss him and not have those thoughts going through my head.  
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 2
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 8
Amount Saved: $4.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 7 Mins: 49 Seconds: 20

TreepeoAug 16, 2017 @ 11:04 PM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Margie55,
 
That's the spirit.  You can do this.
 
You know, you are going to find it is such a relief to let go of all the guilt and embarrassment associated with smoking.  I remember being so ashamed that I was almost paralyzed at times.  And I would brood about it constantly.  Now, all of those negative feelings are gone, and I am acutely aware of how liberating it is to quit smoking. 
 
You are going to face some challenges.  When you do, go through the milestones, drink lots of cold water, remember why you wanted to quit, and distract yourself.  And keep posting.  We all need each other to get through this. And we can all succeed.


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 231
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 5,775
Amount Saved: $693.00
Life Gained:
Days: 31 Hrs: 19 Mins: 33 Seconds: 55

ShanbamAug 16, 2017 @ 1:49 PM
Posts: 51
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Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Retired
Hobbies: Reading, Pilates
Hi Margie55, I am glad day 2 is going well for you. Keep it up! You can do it! You will be so proud when you can look at your mileage and see all the smoke free days.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 6/30/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 47
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 564
Amount Saved: $383.52
Life Gained:
Days: 6 Hrs: 6 Mins: 25 Seconds: 47

Margie55Aug 16, 2017 @ 11:25 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning,
 
Today is day 2 and I am still doing well.  I still feel relief.  I have realized that I thought smoking was giving me something to look forward to.  I would think to myself while at work "just get through the day and you can sneak a smoke after work."  Does a few seconds of relief followed by hours of anguish and guilt sound like something to look forward to?  This addiction is so powerful and it is complete nonsense.  I have so much going on in my life that is good right now and I don't need to sabotage it with destructive addictive behaviour.   


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 1
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 4
Amount Saved: $2.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 4 Mins: 48 Seconds: 39

Emily, Quit CoachAug 15, 2017 @ 3:20 PM
Posts: 11
Joined: Jun 25, 2015 (1:29 PM)
Hi Margie55,
 
I'm happy to hear that day 1 is going well. It's great that the cravings are passing quickly, but also that you get that sense of relief and no longer have to hide or feel guilt.
 
We will be here supporting you along the way.
 
Have a wonderful smoke free day,
Emily
Margie55Aug 15, 2017 @ 11:40 AM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Good morning everyone,
 
I feel so relieved this morning.  No smoking today and I did have some short-lived cravings but they passed quickly.  I felt so good this morning arriving at work and not having to worry about whether anybody could smell it on me and whether or not I had remembered to not leave my lighter out on the kitchen counter by mistake.  I had been telling myself "it's no big deal, so you sneak a smoke a few time a day, that's not a problem."  That was my addiction talking to me a tricking me.  It was and is a big deal.   What I needed to hear was "that's no way to live" but in a way that is understanding and not judgmental.  Thank you so much.


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 0
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 0
Amount Saved: $0.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 1 Mins: 54 Seconds: 40

Paul, Quit CoachAug 14, 2017 @ 7:43 PM
Posts: 1574
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Gender: Male
Hi Margie55,

Reading this, I get a glimpse of just how happy you will be in short order, being able to be true to yourself, as well as to others. It is definitely exhausting when you have to hide your smoking or any other addiction every day. 

You've done it for 6 months so you know you can do it again. We look forward to reading about your progress, and we'll certainly be here to help you face the challenges that arise.

Good luck tomorrow, and let's all remember to take things one day, or even one craving at a time.

Good night everyone.
Paul


Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

TreepeoAug 14, 2017 @ 5:46 PM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Oh Margie55,
 
That's terrible.  That's no way to live.  And it just goes to show how powerful this addiction is.  I can relate to what you are saying, because I continued to smoke even though I was ashamed of myself for doing it.  Every day I was so embarrassed.  And I never went anywhere without breath strips, not that I was fooling anyone.
 
Maybe this time when you start your quit again, try posting here every day.  Personally, I found that posting here helped to keep me accountable.  That is, I didn't want to let myself down and I didn't want to let my friends here down.  And that was a really powerful motivator for me.
 
I hope you can find your inner strength to help you keep your quit.  It is so worth it. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 228
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 5,700
Amount Saved: $684.00
Life Gained:
Days: 31 Hrs: 12 Mins: 13 Seconds: 33

Margie55Aug 14, 2017 @ 1:18 PM
Posts: 66
Joined: Jan 08, 2015 (8:00 PM)

Age: 53
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
I have quit many times and sometimes for extended periods of time up to as long as 6 months but i started again a few months ago.  Nobody knows that I smoke.  I sneak it when nobody is around.  I brush my teeth and change my clothes and I go to great lengths to hide it.  It's exhausting.  I'm constantly worrying if people know.  I'm driving myself crazy and I have to stop again. I have already smoked today, so I picked tomorrow as my quit date. 

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/15/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 0
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 0
Amount Saved: $0.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 2 Mins: 6 Seconds: 36