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Vix1976Nov 27, 2017 @ 7:44 PM
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Great wisdom lostjennie, That is something I’ve always struggled with, I just started a new job and feel overwhelmed all afternoon. My sweetie was texting me wondering when I’d be home and initially I said I don’t know then I though I worked 12 hours today I’m tired and I’m not going to be productive sitting here any longer. I put in the time and then some that the company required and I’m going home. And proudly I did, it’s such a hard lesson to learn. It’s so hard to remember this lesson sometimes. So thanks for reaffirming that for me. And through it all I rarely thought about smoking, if I did I knew it wouldn’t help my stress but only add to it because that would be failing at this quit and resetting my quit meter and that’s way more important to me. Smoking never really helps anything we just thought it did and it became our crutch. We are stronger than this. And you are too ocean I know that you are so you keep reading these posts and we will be here to pick you up when you’re feeling down or doubting yourself. We KNOW that you can do this!!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 76
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,140
Amount Saved: $820.80
Life Gained:
Days: 7 Hrs: 0 Mins: 51 Seconds: 0

OceanNov 27, 2017 @ 1:21 PM
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I can't thank you enough guys!  I come in here feeling discouraged and immediately feel a pick me up.  Thank you so much for such sage wisdom, which escapes me in moments.  It helps me re-connect and feel a purpose.   I find the forums very grounding here at SHO.  Everything I hear on all of these forums by all of you helps in my recovery.  
 
I never did get out to buy Nicotine Replacement, except the gum.  I'm making the time to do so now.  Commit to myself.
 
I hope I'll see you all on the new forums and that we can figure them out together.  Keep on trucking!
Sincerely, Ocean 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -5
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -125
Amount Saved: $-76.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -48409

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

lostjennieNov 25, 2017 @ 8:32 AM
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Hobbies: photography, arts
Hello Ocean. We all face stress in our lives and I remember being told that ideally when we quit we would be in a stress free world but in reality that is not going to happen. I am now well into my quit and have done so while trying to deal with the death of my spouse. When he first past I would use his death as an excuse to smoke as if somehow smoking made my missing him seem easier to deal with it all. I have learned though that smoking or not I still had to deal with what I was feeling inside.
 
 I am sorry to hear about your dad but by your own admission you said he was in the right place. He is in a place where he will be cared for which I can only assume is better than him being on his own. I have been there where you have to juggle both your own life and the needs of others. I know it can be very difficult but please do what you can and do not beat up on yourself if something have to be left undone. This guilt I used to feel actually helped drive me back to smoking instead of allowing me to keep a quit going.
 
 We all face adversity and our called upon at times to do more than we feel we may be able to handle. I used to be one who took it all on my shoulders but after Sparky's death I have learned that I can only do so much and as long as I have done my best then that is all I can ask of me. I have also learned that I am not in all of this alone and that sometimes I have to let go of things that upon looking at them are not as important as I thought. I have learned to let go of certain things and allow others to help me.
 
 You can do this Ocean as I was once like you. I struggled with so many unsuccessful but hopefully this time I have finally made it.  

I will survive this as I am strong

TreepeoNov 24, 2017 @ 12:26 AM
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Hi Ocean,
 
You continue to inspire and amaze me.  You have such a positive spirit, and you continue to fight even when the going gets tough.  Good for you, Ocean.  Remember, you are going in the right direction and eventually, you are going to get there. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 330
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 8,250
Amount Saved: $990.00
Life Gained:
Days: 45 Hrs: 10 Mins: 57 Seconds: 0

Vix1976Nov 23, 2017 @ 6:47 PM
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You got this ocean. I know you want it and you’ll get there.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 71
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,065
Amount Saved: $766.80
Life Gained:
Days: 6 Hrs: 15 Mins: 52 Seconds: 46

Smobered UpNov 23, 2017 @ 5:45 AM
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Age: 71
Gender: Female
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Occupation: retired
Hobbies: Cottage in the summer, Florida in the winter, Photography, NOT SMOKING ☺
Hey Ocean,
I hear ya!   If I can make it stick.......anyone can make it stick.  Good on ya for never quitting quitting!
 
Your longtime quitter pal for however long it takes,
 
Smobered Up
I am an addict aspiring to lifelong smobriety.


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/15/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 404
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 10,100
Amount Saved: $4,545.00
Life Gained:
Days: 50 Hrs: 4 Mins: 58 Seconds: 35

The buck stops HERE!

Nadia, Quit CoachNov 22, 2017 @ 5:00 PM
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Hi Ocean,

Good for you for the decision to look after yourself. You should really be proud of yourself for making things work even in tough times. Glad you are getting the products you need to help in your quit. 
As far as cutting down, it's a great way to start and keep taking it one day at a time.

You can do this! 

Cheers everyone! 
Nadia, Quit Coach
OceanNov 22, 2017 @ 11:07 AM
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Hi again Guys,
Ok, so it's not an emergency right now, that part is over.  My dad has been admitted to hospital where he belongs.  And I can't put my life on the back burner either.  So trying to do both.  I see that I still have 10 days before my quit date.  I don't know if I'll get there, but I'll continue cutting back as I was before these last few days.  I don't feel any better smoking more.  That's what I have to rememeber.  I'll be going to the store and loading up on nicarette products to help adjust now.  I have the gum, and everything is on sale for the New Year.  I can't promise to quit completely, but I'll continue doing what I was doing for now.  That's my promise for now.
Cheers, Ocean
It has to stick eventually, right?   I want to be proud of cutting down again.  It was just a blip.


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -10
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -250
Amount Saved: $-152.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -106629

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

JeyanNov 20, 2017 @ 11:36 PM
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Ocean sorry to hear about your crisis. Quitting is a long-term process and take time. However, never give up trying. We all need to relearn to deal with tough and difficult situations without reverting smoking again. We can do this!!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/16/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 400
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 4,000
Amount Saved: $2,400.00
Life Gained:
Days: 58 Hrs: 21 Mins: 38 Seconds: 14

Vix1976Nov 20, 2017 @ 8:47 PM
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Take care ocean. I hope everything gets straightened out quickly and you can get back on track. We’ll be here when you’re ready again!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 69
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,035
Amount Saved: $745.20
Life Gained:
Days: 6 Hrs: 9 Mins: 24 Seconds: 8

Paul, Quit CoachNov 20, 2017 @ 2:30 PM
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We'll all pulling for you Ocean, and send our best thoughts and wishes that everything turns out for you and your family.

We look forward to hearing from you when you have the time.

Take good care, and that goes for everyone out there.

Paul

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TreepeoNov 20, 2017 @ 12:15 PM
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Hi Ocean,
 
I totally get what you are saying.  You have way too much on your plate right now.  You need to take care of yourself and your family first.  It doesn't make sense to subject yourself to additional stress.  You will get back to this when you can.  I remember all too well how I felt when my parents were alive but became ill.  It was almost more than I could bear.
 
Hang in there, Ocean.  I know you are going through a really stressful time.  But it is important to take some time for yourself, too.  So make sure you take some time each day for yourself.  It could be something as simple as reading for half an hour, or cooking your favorite meal.  Just anything that will make you happy.  When we get into the role of caretaker, we tend to neglect ourselves.  But that is  a mistake, because you can't run on empty.  So be kind to yourself as well. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 326
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 8,150
Amount Saved: $978.00
Life Gained:
Days: 44 Hrs: 23 Mins: 21 Seconds: 42

OceanNov 20, 2017 @ 12:37 AM
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Hi Guys,  I can't beleive that it's only been a week since my last post here.  Everything has been crazy and changing every 2 or 3 hours these past several days.  I haven't been tracking or counting or working on cutting down.  Essentially, I may even be back full blown smoking (I just don't know how many a day).  I haven't been able to plan or think ahead lately as my dad has been in crisis, and his wife, etc...  I've been too busy to think.  I don't want to lose touch though, so I'm just posting to say I'll be back in a bit.  I will continue.  This is just a blip and temporary.  I have too much on my plate for today, but maybe tomorrow I won't.  Keep the faith, just cope.  Wish you all well.
Ocean 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -12
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -300
Amount Saved: $-182.40
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -134486

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

JeyanNov 13, 2017 @ 8:57 AM
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Good for your Ocean. Great news indeed. Now think about how much more you can save if you quit forever? We can do this!!!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/16/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 393
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 3,930
Amount Saved: $2,358.00
Life Gained:
Days: 57 Hrs: 19 Mins: 32 Seconds: 28

Sophia, Quit CoachNov 12, 2017 @ 9:35 AM
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That's really good news Ocean, regaining that visual of money saved since cutting down can be a huge motivator. Wow $295.66, and counting! Keep going Ocean :) Sophia, Quit Coach

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TreepeoNov 11, 2017 @ 11:50 PM
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Hi Ocean,
 
I am thrilled to hear that you got your app back.  Yippee!  You are working hard and you deserve to have something to help you in this journey.  
 
You have saved so much money already.  That must be a real relief for you.   But also, you are working towards a clear goal, to become a non-smoker.  It is not an easy path, but it is so worth it.  
 
Hang in there, Ocean.  You are doing great, and we are all rooting for you! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 318
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,950
Amount Saved: $954.00
Life Gained:
Days: 43 Hrs: 19 Mins: 13 Seconds: 28

OceanNov 11, 2017 @ 11:48 AM
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They've updated that QuitCoach app that I lost, so I'm back on it!  Yay!  It says I've saved $$295.66, since I started cutting down.  Best news ever!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -21
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -525
Amount Saved: $-319.20
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -232037

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

Vix1976Nov 09, 2017 @ 10:59 PM
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Good job ocean!! Glad you found your bag of tricks and that you’re filling your time. Seems like you’re doing well and using your tools. You’ve got this and we all believe in your. Keep cutting back and preparing for your quit date. We’re all here for you!! I might not be on as much since I’m starting a new job Monday but I will be here cheering you on mind, body and spirit!!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 58
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 870
Amount Saved: $626.40
Life Gained:
Days: 5 Hrs: 9 Mins: 10 Seconds: 34

TreepeoNov 08, 2017 @ 7:04 PM
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Hi Ocean,
 
I love your attitude!  Glad to hear you have things to do to keep yourself distracted.  Hope you have fun tonight! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 315
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,875
Amount Saved: $945.00
Life Gained:
Days: 43 Hrs: 8 Mins: 39 Seconds: 22

OceanNov 08, 2017 @ 5:07 PM
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Hi guys,  thanks for the idea's.  I actually do carry around a tote that has these distractions in it but I always used them for when I went to Chemo with my dad.  Out of site, out of mind these days!!  But they've been right here with me all along.  
 
Today was great.  Back at work and ino my routine was amazing.  After work I went Christmas stocking shopping which was a great distraction!  I have plans tonight in a non-smoking venue with friends (no, I won't sneak outside, lol).  So my day and evening is booked.  I love when that happens.
 
 I love those logic puzzles, or sudoku games.  Any may pick up some yarn to knit a scarf so I don't have to count stitches.  More shopping, yay.
 
Take Care,
Ocean 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -24
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -600
Amount Saved: $-364.80
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -263793

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

Vix1976Nov 07, 2017 @ 8:24 PM
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Hi ocean Agree with treepeo. Those are the things that I do and I find I can usually get lost in them. For some reason I thought you were on champix...anyways if you’re not then yes nrt’s might be the way to go to help cutting back. You can do this!!! We all know that you can do believe in yourself.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 56
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 840
Amount Saved: $604.80
Life Gained:
Days: 5 Hrs: 4 Mins: 29 Seconds: 45

TreepeoNov 07, 2017 @ 7:22 PM
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Hi Ocean,
 
I play video games, particularly hidden object games, on my computer.  There are all kinds of them, and they can transport you mentally to a different place, just like a good book.
 
Another option is crossword puzzles, word searches or sudoku puzzles.  Or colouring books.  Or jigsaw puzzles.  Or crocheting or knitting.
 
Those are the things that come to mind when I hear you need to remain a couch potato but do something to pass the time. Hope this helps.


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 314
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,850
Amount Saved: $942.00
Life Gained:
Days: 43 Hrs: 5 Mins: 23 Seconds: 41

OceanNov 07, 2017 @ 3:07 PM
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Hi everyone,
Still blah feeling today, but life goes on...  I've just got to ride it out and not feel so discouraged.  Yesterday a SHO quit coach called, and suggested using NRT soon.  Im planning on using the gum this time as skin no longer keeps sticky stuff on (patches) like it used too.  I need some suggestions of activities to do after work until after dinner to distract me.  I find I'm phsyically tired but my mind is still racing at that time of day, it's an oxymoron feeling, lol.  After dinner I'm usually good to go with a book, am feeling calm and better concentration again.  So I need happy hour distractions for a three hour duration, that let me kinda be a couch potato but engaged.
 
I hope you're all keeping your quit and feeling confident and motivated.  If you have anything to share, please share away.  Thanks! 
 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -25
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -625
Amount Saved: $-380.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -276177

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

Vix1976Nov 05, 2017 @ 10:46 PM
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Hi ocean Sorry I missed all your posts, wow have you had a lot going on. I found it really hard to go from 12-8 too. This was likely my hardest step, not sure why so I know how you feel. I basically just had to make myself do it. Thankfully I didn’t have so much going on at that point like you have so take it easy on yourself and remember all your positive steps like has been mentioned. Smoking half of what you used to is still better than where you were before. From the stories you’ve been telling I know you’re a fighter and I know you can continue on this journey with success. Stay strong friend and keep fighting the good fight!!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 54
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 810
Amount Saved: $583.20
Life Gained:
Days: 5 Hrs: 0 Mins: 16 Seconds: 20

Efram, ModeratorNov 05, 2017 @ 8:58 PM
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Hi Everyone,

Whew! Ocean, you've had quite a week! I hope you feel better soon, and I sure hope your father feels better once his bumps and bruises heal. 

It's quite normal for someone to plateau for a little while during the cutting down process. Maybe it's a chance to gather more strength, a chance to reflect on what's been learned so far, or a chance to reconnect with the motivation for quitting. 

At such times it can also help to give recognize the progress and effort spent to get to this point! Ocean, in spite of the challenges, as Treepeo points out, you have cut down. In fact, your're smoking half as much as you were at the start of this thread! 

Easier days and better days are hopefully coming soon. 

Regards,
Efram 

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OceanNov 05, 2017 @ 5:48 PM
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Thanks Treepeo,  I'm still suffering from sluggishness today.  I ma try and get in to my Dr. as I've had low white blood counts for the last 2 months but no other symptoms of infection, so we think it's kidney stones again and I've been refered to a specialist.  Now I'm wondering if I should get another count, because I feel really run down and sleepy.
 
My dad is much better than I imagined.  I went to see him today and he spent the day in ER and had his bumps and scrapes gauzed up.  He's getting over the shock of being stranded without help for 10 hours.  And I'm buying him a baby monitor so his wife can hear him if he gets in trouble overnight again.  He has lousy balance now, and has pretty much stopped eating and drinking, so the end could be in the next month, who knows?  He thinks he'll feel better after his body heals from his fall, but I think he'll keep getting worse, but I don't mention it caue he needs all of the hope he can muster.
 
Im still deciding if I should take tomorrow off work to check in with my Doctor and have a throat swab.  And have one more day of naps.  But I really miss all of the activity and my kids were away so I didn't even have at home activity.  Going out for a bit tonight with some friends, so I hope that perks me up.  I think I will book another sick day and try and get out of the house between naps, and pick up that baby monitor.
 
Keep up the positive posts, even though I'm feeling down, I really get inspired and they do motivate me to get up and keep fighting.
 
Take Care everyone, may easier days be ahead. 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -27
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -675
Amount Saved: $-410.40
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -297765

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

TreepeoNov 04, 2017 @ 11:41 PM
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Hi Ocean,
 
Just wanted to tell you I care.  And please don't be so hard on yourself.  We all just  do the best that we can in the moment.
 
And you have cut back.  Be proud of yourself for that.  That is not easy to do.
 
I think you rock.  Give yourself some credit.  You have a goal in mind.  You are determined to quit smoking, and it will happen. But meanwhile, life goes on, and we have to deal with it.  You've had your share of challenges, but you are still moving forward.  I really hope you can find another app that will help you in this process.


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 311
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,775
Amount Saved: $933.00
Life Gained:
Days: 42 Hrs: 19 Mins: 48 Seconds: 8

OceanNov 04, 2017 @ 6:59 PM
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It's been a half hour since my last post here.  The hunger comes on strong now, so I've kicked myself in the bottom and made myself bake some chicken for dinner.  A healthy meal, even though I feel like a couch potato.  So hurrah for this mini step, I've got to push myself tonight.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -28
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -700
Amount Saved: $-425.60
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -309104

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

OceanNov 04, 2017 @ 6:29 PM
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Hi Guys, not a very cheery update I'm afraid.  I'm so tired and feeling really blah in my mood today.  Still have this virus, and although my throat didn't hurt first thing in the morning like it has been, it came upon me later in the day.  So I've been napping a couple of times a day, and normally I'm not a napper.  I don't really feel refreshed after the nap either and feel completely off of my routine.  Yuck!  Can we talk constipation???  Enough said.  
 
I don't really feel like I'm progressing.  I think I'm supposed to go down to 8 smokes this next week.  But I'm sitting steady at 12/13.  At least I haven't gone up to my usual 25.  I miss my app.  I miss suuny daylight too.  I'm a suck, I hope I feel better and have more energy tomorrow.  My poor dad fell on his floor overnight and couldn't get up, so he was left there all night.  Isn't that sad?  He's hurt himself from the fall, but is being treated from a visiting nurse.  I'm going to see him tomorrow and bringing some turkey stew and apple pie, even though he can't eat much.  His suffering is really sad, he feels it won't be long now.  I wish he'd gently die now, no more fear or suffering.  He has something important to tell me tomorrow, I'm a bit anxious.
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -28
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -700
Amount Saved: $-425.60
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -309343

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

Vix1976Nov 02, 2017 @ 10:44 PM
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That sucks ocean. But as a plus you’re not smoking as much and may help you while you’re reducing and get you ready to quit earlier. Feel better soon!!!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 51
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 765
Amount Saved: $550.80
Life Gained:
Days: 4 Hrs: 17 Mins: 30 Seconds: 55

Linda, Quit CoachNov 02, 2017 @ 2:38 PM
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Hi Ocean,

So sorry to hear that you are sick today. Hope you will feel better soon. You went thought a lot lately and you have worked so hard, your determination and commitment is so great. You are a true winner Ocean! Keep going strong. I hope things will get easier for you and take good care of yourself.

 

Linda, Quit Coach

OceanNov 02, 2017 @ 2:02 PM
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Age: 55
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Country: Canada
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Hobbies: Family, Reading, Music, Outdoors
Thanks so much Jeyan!  And Vix and Treepeo, Marianne. 
I love your encouragement.  I'm sick today.  When the virus started making my eyes sore, and achy body, I realized it wasn't withdrawal symptoms anymore.  So I've been sleeping a lot today, and have booked tomorrow off too.  Just taking my meds and keeping my eyes closed, spraying my throat, eye drops, and sucking throat lozenges.  Not much smoking happening today at all.  It should be a good non-smoking rest of the day.  And hopefully I shake off this virus soon.
Stay on strong for me!
Ocean 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -30
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -750
Amount Saved: $-456.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -334318

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

JeyanNov 02, 2017 @ 12:21 PM
Posts: 511
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Age: 39
Gender: Male
Country: Canada
Occupation: Working
Hobbies: Walking, Roller skating, yoga, family
Ocean, you're on the right track! We all have gone through what you're going through. Your inner strength is battling hard to win the addiction. In the long run with more persistent quit attempt your inner strength will win over the addiction. During my initial days of quit 3+ years ago I used buy a pack smoke couple of cigarettes and throw the pack away. 3 years later here I am. Ocean, don't forget quitting smoking means unlearning your old habits and relearning new good habits. The unlearning and relearning part takes time, many trials, and persistent attempts to get back on your legs right away and continue to relearn after every pitfall. We can do this!!!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/16/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 382
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 3,820
Amount Saved: $2,292.00
Life Gained:
Days: 56 Hrs: 5 Mins: 6 Seconds: 47

Vix1976Nov 02, 2017 @ 12:32 AM
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Age: 41
Gender: Female
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You’re doing a great job ocean! I regressed a few nights out when I was cutting back too so cut yourself some slack! I know you can do this and I know how bad you want it. Don’t let a little slip up get you too down, just regroup and get back at it! You got this!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 50
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 750
Amount Saved: $540.00
Life Gained:
Days: 4 Hrs: 15 Mins: 27 Seconds: 38

Marianne, Quit CoachNov 01, 2017 @ 8:53 PM
Posts: 1950
Joined: Jul 08, 2006 (9:52 AM)
Hello Ocean,

A slip can happen yet you grounded yourself tonight and feel what Valerie shared to normalize your non-smoking routine to be a benefit.  

Sorry to hear about the uncomfortable withdrawal, check in with your doctor if you don't feel any relief.  No sense having to suffer so much if there is something that can help you.  

As Treepeo says, you truly are doing great, you took and are taking such remarkable steps in your journey.  

So you are rocking it!

Marianne

Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

TreepeoNov 01, 2017 @ 7:40 PM
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Hey Ocean,
 
Don't worry about regressing.  We do what we can.  I think you are doing great!  Listen, the fact that you left your house the other day to go to work without smokes is really something.  At least you know now that if you did it once, you can do it again.
 
When I first quit, it was near the end of my Christmas vacation. I remember my first day going back to work.  I looked at my purse and thought, "I'm really not going to put my package of cigarettes in there?"  I just stood there and thought about it, and wondered if I would really carry on with my quit. I eventually left for work without them, but man, was it ever hard to do.  I didn't realize how symbolic it would be to me. That's when I knew that I was really serious and I meant business.
 
I am so sorry you lost that app.  That really bites.  But could there be another one around that might help, at least so you don't have to write stuff down?  I don't know what to suggest because I am not a techie, but maybe someone else here might have some suggestions.
 
As for your throat, yup, it could be withdrawal.  That's just one of the things you will have to put up with for a while.  But it's better to have a sore throat from withdrawal, than from a serious illness, so that is what I told myself when I suffered from physical withdrawal pains.  And all of that will pass in time.
 
Keep the faith, Ocean, you are doing great! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 307
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,675
Amount Saved: $921.00
Life Gained:
Days: 42 Hrs: 9 Mins: 28 Seconds: 39

OceanNov 01, 2017 @ 4:30 PM
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Hobbies: Family, Reading, Music, Outdoors
Oh dear, I sort of regressed a bit today.  I brought cigarettes to work and smoked on my breaks.  But I know why it was harder today, as I felt rushed after work and last evening yesterday.  I didn't get the down time that I usually make a point of doing.  Tonight I take a breather and center myself.  Also, I updated my ios, and now I don't get that quit coach app, bummer!!!  I'll have to keep a little notebook to scribble in my stats.  My throat is non-stop sore, ears too this week.  I think it's from the withdrawal, loosing the excess mucous.  I've been sucking on sour  candies, and sipping hot and cold drinks all day.  Even acetaminophen isn't doing the trick.  Of to relax and regroup now.  Stay Calm everyone.  
 
I love what Lillian said, about normalizing my non-smoking routine as I decrease.  I think it might be the trick I need to successfully quit.
 
Cheers everyone, you are rocking it. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -31
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -775
Amount Saved: $-471.20
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -344580

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

TreepeoOct 31, 2017 @ 10:00 PM
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Wowie Zowie Ocean,
 
The fact that you went to work without bringing any cigarettes with you is a VERY BIG DEAL!!!  Good for you!  That is a HUGE MILESTONE!
 
And now you are starting to save money, which is going to relieve some of the pressure you are under.  So it is all good!
 
I'm so happy for you Ocean!  Keep it up, you're doing great! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 307
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,675
Amount Saved: $921.00
Life Gained:
Days: 42 Hrs: 6 Mins: 29 Seconds: 38

OceanOct 31, 2017 @ 7:13 PM
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Hobbies: Family, Reading, Music, Outdoors
Thanks guys.  My big milestone today was that I didn't bring any cigarettes into work, or on the drive to and from.  I also forgot my lunch, so it was kinda rough with the hunger and all, but I did it!  I've also been kicking at stress' but by working with my bro on my budget and finances, and have saved over $100.00 in the past two weeks on cigarettes.  Yippe, I'm moving forwards not backwards this time.  The key is tackling things that scare me, like money/loans/debt and living frugally.  If I can do this, then it will be easier to manage the 'addictive' part of my life.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -32
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -800
Amount Saved: $-486.40
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -354717

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

Valerie, Quit CoachOct 29, 2017 @ 3:24 PM
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Joined: Jun 07, 2017 (7:51 PM)
Hi Ocean, 

It sure sounds like you are growing stronger by the hour. Look at your progress and how you have been able to cut down to 11 cigarettes per day. The app acts as a guide but you set your own rules and limits throughout this process. Way to go Ocean! 

Like many of your peers here at SHO have said, be kind to yourself and normalize the steps (good and bad days, cravings and withdrawals) throughout this process.

Have a beautiful day!

Valerie

Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

TreepeoOct 29, 2017 @ 1:39 PM
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Hi Ocean,
 
I totally get you feeling nervous about cutting back next week.  Quitting is not easy.   I remember that just thinking about quitting made my hands break out into a sweat.
 
But look how far you have come, Ocean.  You are doing great, and you should be really proud of yourself.
 
Lithan44 posts daily quotes.  I find them really inspirational, and they may help you through this process, too.   But no matter what, please realize that what you are doing is going to change your life for the better.  I was really scared to try to quit smoking.   I tried, and didn't even make it 2 days before I gave in,  because I was hurting so bad.  But I realized that I was going to hurt a lot in order to beat this addiction, and I made a conscious decision to make the effort.  And it was so worth it.
 
Have faith in yourself, Ocean, because you are stronger than you think. 
 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 304
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,600
Amount Saved: $912.00
Life Gained:
Days: 41 Hrs: 22 Mins: 44 Seconds: 13

Vix1976Oct 29, 2017 @ 12:21 PM
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Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Hi ocean The closer I got to my quit date I cut out less cigarettes but cut back every two or theee days instead of four. I found that easier than going from 12 to 8, I did 12 to 9 in two or three days and then from 8 to 6 in two days and 6 to 4 in Two days and then down to three for my three last days of smoking. I found three to just be a tease and more tortuous than anything so I personally don’t recommend that low before quitting. Around four or five per day then be done. I don’t know if that helps or will work for you, just what I did. Keep up the good work ocean. You’ve got this and you’re doing great with your plan.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 46
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 690
Amount Saved: $496.80
Life Gained:
Days: 4 Hrs: 7 Mins: 40 Seconds: 15

NewoportunityOct 29, 2017 @ 9:11 AM
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Dear Ocean
 
Sound like a Plan, personally I could cut to 0 and that it!
 
I know you can do it! Say it!
 
If you do not make the change to stop it you will be waiting for next one and so...
 
I wish your Plan works.
 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 6/8/2015
Smoke-Free Days: 874
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 52,440
Amount Saved: $23,598.00
Life Gained:
Days: 140 Hrs: 19 Mins: 22 Seconds: 48

EVERY DAY IS A TRY, NEVER GIVE UP

OceanOct 29, 2017 @ 8:37 AM
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Hobbies: Family, Reading, Music, Outdoors
Sunday Morning Update:  Starting week 3
I'm down to about 11 cigarettes a day, but I'm budgeted for 18 on my app.  I feel good that I've decreased more, but today I'm feeling more nervous and find the devil whispering "you can smoke more, right up to 18".  But I'm not going to.  I've also had cravings,  early morning and late afternoon, but I can beat them. 
 
I'm definately going through some withdrawal symtoms, especially not feeling alert, sleepy, stuffed nose etc ...  It may be a mild side effect of the flu shot that I just had, or maybe I'm going to come down with something.  They all have similar symptoms.  But it's the weekend, so it's not interfering with anything.
 
It makes me nervous to think that next week I'll have to decrease again so I try and get my thoughts back to NOW, this day, this hour.  That old timer thing really helps keep me in the present!  I set it for every hour or two, depending if it's a cluster time of day in my routine.
 
Big Reward:  I still have 3 packs of cigarettes from the carton I bought 12 days ago!  So that's a lot of savings $$$$$$, me smiling, lol!
 
So onwards it is, I can do this day!  Happy Days to you, my friends. 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/3/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -34
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -850
Amount Saved: $-516.80
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -382623

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

Vix1976Oct 28, 2017 @ 11:35 AM
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Keep up the good work ocean. You can do this and I know you want it so keep fighting to get there and you will! Soon you’ll be smoke free and we’re all here for you!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 45
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 675
Amount Saved: $486.00
Life Gained:
Days: 4 Hrs: 5 Mins: 22 Seconds: 47

OceanOct 27, 2017 @ 11:33 PM
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I had those intense hours long cravings too, Treepeo.  I had times where my stomach was clenched for weekend-long episodes in the first weeks of my last attempt.  It's like it doesn't end, and then eventually it does.  Those are the doozies I'm afraid of.  And then it'd end, just like that, presto.  I didn't know why they lasted so long.  I don't care now, I anticipate they'll happen again.
 
I just realized that I've been doing this withdrawal for 2 weeks now, and my stats are improving.  I'm up to 11 at 11:30 pm, and was at 8 at 6:30 p.m.  So only 3 in 5 1/2 hours.
 
I've had very mild headaches which hit around the dinner hour for the past three days.  I think it may be withdrawal related.  I only have to decrease another 3 smokes a day next week, so it's doable.  I think it will be either night-time or maybe at my coffee breaks.  But I'll just keep plugging away, slowly and patiently.
 
And now I'm sleepy, another day coming to an end.  I'm hoping I'll sleep in tomorrow so I don't have those first three hours of coffee, smoking. and weekly planning that I usually enjoy on Saturday mornings.  And yes, catch up on a new book, hopefully nap ...
 
Till then,  Cheerio 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/30/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -1
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -25
Amount Saved: $-14.76
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -9737

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

TreepeoOct 27, 2017 @ 9:32 PM
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Yeah Ocean, I get what you mean about breaking your day into chunks.
 
When I first quit, and I had my very worst cravings, I would wait for 10 minutes at a time, because anyone can wait 10 minutes.  At the height of the madness, I did this for almost two hours!  Oh man, how I suffered!  But you know what?  Breaking it down into 10 minute increments helped to get me through it.  I just kept pretending to myself that the next 10 minute period was the first.  It may sound stupid, but it kept me on track.
 
Maybe try to push yourself to do a few more things than normal this weekend to keep yourself busy.  Like instead of walking to both my grocery stores in one go, I would go to one, go home and unload, and then make a second trip out.  All of that to keep myself occupied.  We have to do whatever it takes, eh?
 
And if the mood strikes, have a nap, because you don't crave when you are asleep! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 303
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,575
Amount Saved: $909.00
Life Gained:
Days: 41 Hrs: 17 Mins: 12 Seconds: 51

OceanOct 27, 2017 @ 6:18 PM
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You're so right Smobered.  My experience is that we'll crave for a long time, especially after smoking 40 years, we really don't know otherwise do we.  I've been seeing everyone posting about the Fall "cravings".  I know I will always crave, so I just have to get through it.
 
I've been up for 12 1/2 hours and 8 cigarettes.  I'm nervous about tomorrow as I find weekends hard (too many hours and not enough distractions!).  I'll have to set my timer for every 2-3 hours and I think it will help me hang on a bit.  Who knew this "timer" thing would work so well for me, lol!  But it really breaks the day into chunks, and I can manage a chunk of a day now.  It's especially helpful during my cluster times (AM weekends and  after work/early evening weekdays).
 
I refuse to regress!
 
Take Care,
Ocean 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/30/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -2
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -50
Amount Saved: $-29.52
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -12239

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

Smobered UpOct 27, 2017 @ 1:37 PM
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Hobbies: Cottage in the summer, Florida in the winter, Photography, NOT SMOKING ☺
Hey Ocean,
I've been off for a few days.......so glad to see your commitment remains very strong.  
I've been reading through the threads and it seems that many are experiencing excessive cravings.  I am one of 'em.  It's over a year for me now and I feel more empowered now and less fragile for the most part but it is a good reminder for all of us, that there will always be triggers to varying degrees.  Some of my old pals from early days have been smober for 5 to 8 years.  They caution me to be vigilant, as they too have their days of longing.  We are all vulnerable forever....that is just a fact of addiction..  It's mindset that gets us through these moments.  We are keepers of our own resolve. 
 
Your quitter pal for as long as it takes,
Smobered Up,
 
I am an addict aspiring to lifelong smobriety.


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/15/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 377
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 9,425
Amount Saved: $4,241.25
Life Gained:
Days: 46 Hrs: 21 Mins: 23 Seconds: 13

The buck stops HERE!

OceanOct 25, 2017 @ 4:47 PM
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Thqnk you Treepeo!  I appreciate all of your encouragement.  I was reading old posts and saw that you till get cravings and I'm glad you said this, it's keeping it real, you know?  I've had a few lengthy smoke free periods, and still got the odd cravings too.  But I relapsed when I wasn't craving!  Isn't it nuts?   Watch the mood swings too, they got me in trouble too.  Of course, early in a quit, like first 6 months, I'm so fragile.  And it's been years since I had a lengthy quit and I've been smoking forever (40 years)....  But we can do it!
 
Also, Sisu, that's exactly how I'm doing it!  Weaning myself off drugs, nicotine.  My brain doesn't know what to do with itself without my constant doses of nicotine.  But if I can avoid extreme cravings for a little while (dosing only half my dose now), it helps.  I'm not beyond using NRT when I'm down to only a few a day.  NRT really helps deal with the brain imbalance in my opinion.  But it takes a lot of courage and hope and faith while riding it out as well.
 
I'm averaging 14/25 cigarettes a day now, quicker than expected, and feeling really proud of it!  I didn't think I could do it, and here I am, doing it! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/30/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -4
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -100
Amount Saved: $-59.04
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -35823

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

TreepeoOct 23, 2017 @ 9:32 PM
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Hi Ocean,
 
I am so glad to hear that you are feeling more confident now, and that you are finding the app helpful.  That's great!  Like I said before, there is absolutely nothing wrong with taking baby steps, as long as you are moving in the right direction.
 
I think you have developed a great plan of action.  Way to go, Ocean! 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 299
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,475
Amount Saved: $897.00
Life Gained:
Days: 41 Hrs: 3 Mins: 59 Seconds: 58

SisuOct 23, 2017 @ 8:05 PM
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Joined: Oct 03, 2017 (3:36 PM)
Ocean -- Just wanted to share something with you.  Two years ago I underwent several surgeries.  Not all at the same time but needless to say, in the process I became addicted to the pain medication.  When I decided it was time to stop that nonsense I made a tapering schedule to follow.  It took me 28 days to get off the drugs I had relied on for just about two years!  Your carefully planned quit schedule reminds me of me!! 
 
Surprisingly I was very disciplined while following the schedule and it allowed my body to gradually taper off the medication.  I'm not a strong believer in cold turkey for any addiction.  I really believe I've been able to stay smoke free for almost 24 days by using the NRT.  I've only had one intense day where the nicodemon almost got me!
 
I applaud your determination and planning.  It won't be too long before your quit meter starts climbing its way up.  Bravo!
Sisu 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/1/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 23
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 276
Amount Saved: $162.84
Life Gained:
Days: 3 Hrs: 4 Mins: 54 Seconds: 11

OceanOct 23, 2017 @ 7:41 PM
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Hello Everyone!  Good news, I'm getting more confident, yay!!  I've smoked 13/25 today, and 2 more probably until I head to bed to read.  I really need this confidence because I've become almost phobic and overwhelmed about attempting to quit.  But the timer thing is working, and so is the app I found which lets me track my cigarettes smoked, and my cavings for when I'm in between (yes, my cluster times!).  So this reducing thing is really helpful.
 
Do any of you remember the comedy, 'What about Bob?' with Bill Murray as the fearful, neurotic "baby steps" patient.  And Richard Dreyfuss as his psychiatrist?  Well, I feel like Bob.  And these baby steps are working!    So mind my neurosis will you.  I feel a confidence developing!  And that is GREAT...
 
My quitting Plan:
week One - reduce from25 to 19per day
Week Two - Reduce from 18 to 15 a day
Week Three -Reduce from 15 to 12 a day
Week Four - Reduce from 11 to 8 a day
Week Five - Reduce from 8 to 5 a day
Week Six -  Reduce from 4 to 1 a day
Week Seven - Reduce from 1 to 0 a day. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/30/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -6
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -150
Amount Saved: $-88.56
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -57306

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

Nadia, Quit CoachOct 20, 2017 @ 3:38 PM
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Hello everyone,

It's great to see the amount of support you get from fellow members, so many great tips, words of encouragement and awesome people. 
Ocean, you should really be proud of all the changes that you have been able to make, it's definitely a process and it's one day at a time. 
Even with all the challenges you have been facing, you have made changes in cutting down, using the timer to delay and reaching out for support on this forum. Continue celebrating the changes you have made and keep believing that you can do this! 

For the question about the app, there are many options, if you look at the App Store on your phone, you may be able to find the one you like best! 

Thanks everyone for being so great!  

Enjoy your smoke free day! 
Nadia, Quit Coach
Smobered UpOct 20, 2017 @ 2:16 PM
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Hey Ocean.....it looks like we're all rooting for you.  How can you lose?!!
Tink's post to you touched my heart.  I, too, am in awe of you who are single mom's doing the best that you can to make a life for your families.
You have many good suggestions to draw from on this thread.   You've got this one, Ocean.  Stick to your plan and you will win.  Sending positive vibes.  Can you feel 'em?
 
Your quitter pal for as long as it takes, 
Smobered Up,
 
I am an addict aspiring to lifelong smobriety.


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/15/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 370
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 9,250
Amount Saved: $4,162.50
Life Gained:
Days: 46 Hrs: 0 Mins: 36 Seconds: 46

The buck stops HERE!

Vix1976Oct 20, 2017 @ 10:32 AM
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Gender: Female
Country: Canada
You’re doing great ocean. You’ve cut out 7 smokes on your day and but by bit you’ll be down to zero. Cutting back helped me so much in my quit. And you are strong, stronger than you think. You’re a single mom working full time and looking to work more, geez I can’t imagine how hard that must be. If you can do that you can do this too. I believe in you!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 37
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 555
Amount Saved: $399.60
Life Gained:
Days: 3 Hrs: 11 Mins: 30 Seconds: 56

JeyanOct 20, 2017 @ 9:13 AM
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Hobbies: Walking, Roller skating, yoga, family
Good job Ocean, keep working on it. We can do this.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/16/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 369
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 3,690
Amount Saved: $2,214.00
Life Gained:
Days: 54 Hrs: 6 Mins: 49 Seconds: 22

tinkerbelle2Oct 20, 2017 @ 8:50 AM
Posts: 49
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Age: 55
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Country: Canada
Occupation: Teacher's assistant
Hobbies: writing, being in nature
Hi Ocean. I was once like you where I would quit over and over again and not succeed so I can relate to your feelings of frustration. I would go into it full force with the this time I will do it and then a few days later would be back to smoking again. I also got to a point where I would not tell anyone I was trying again so as not to disappoint everyone if I failed. I was getting tired as well at being the brunt of jokes about my constant quits.
 
 One thing that helped me turn it around and finally make this quit stick was first finding someone who helped me not only quit but with my life. I to am a single parent of two girls and never had a high paying job. I was always in debt up to my eyes but always seemed to find a way to buy that pack a day. I look back at all the times I would tell my girls we can't as we haven't any money but I could seem to find $10 for a pack. My girls did not have any trust in me because of this and because I would say I would quit but never did.
 
 I am now about 950 days into this quit and have turned my life around. I still get the occasional urge to have one but when I look at my life today compared to when I was smoking it is like night and day. I am better health wise and money wise and also have my two girls back. I hate that I so many times allowed smoking to come between my girls and I. Ocean you sound like you want to really do this and you can as I was just like you. I will not lie it is very hard but the work you put into making this a reality is so worth what you get out of it in the end. Tink

Don't let life hold you down

TreepeoOct 19, 2017 @ 11:26 PM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Ocean,
 
You ARE doing something remarkable!  You are systematically cutting down on your smoking as part of a quit plan.  That is awesome!  Please Ocean, give yourself some credit here.  You are doing the best you can, and that is all any of us can do. 
 
I don't know about any apps, but maybe someone else will have some leads.
 
Take care Ocean, and take it one day at a time.  Things will get better, just wait and see. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 295
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,375
Amount Saved: $885.00
Life Gained:
Days: 40 Hrs: 15 Mins: 2 Seconds: 54

OceanOct 19, 2017 @ 8:37 PM
Posts: 1182
Joined: Jan 26, 2010 (5:34 PM)

Age: 55
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Educator
Hobbies: Family, Reading, Music, Outdoors
So it's been a couple of days.  My stomach was in knots for 2 days because I'm trying to get a part time job a couple of evenings a week, and maybe one weekend shift.  I have a full time job on top of this too, but I can't stand living and raising kids on my fairly low salary as a single parent.  And I don't really treat myself either.  But it's the smokes, $400 a month, pack a day habit. I've been talking to my bank about getting a home equity loan, we'll see.
 
I have cut down though.  Today I ony had one AM smoke, didn't smoke on my drive to work, and only had 1 cigarette on my breaks.  It wasn't that hard, yay!  But it got harder after work, running errands, etc...  I smoked about 18/25 total.  I bought some nicorette gum on sale for when I completely stop, and lifesavers, lol!!!  No pun, hahaha!
 
I also find setting my timer helps keep it to 1 an hour.  The biggest gain is I felt more confident and that's what I need most!!  So even though it was nothing remarkable, I started feeling like I'm heading the right way, and feel stronger.
 
Are there any apps that track your smoking times as you cut down?  And then work for when you quit and craving times?  There has to be something out there.
 
Thanks for your support,
Ocean 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/30/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -9
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -225
Amount Saved: $-132.84
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -102582

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

JeyanOct 17, 2017 @ 12:22 PM
Posts: 511
Joined: Nov 24, 2014 (9:56 AM)

Age: 39
Gender: Male
Country: Canada
Occupation: Working
Hobbies: Walking, Roller skating, yoga, family
Ocean, congratulations on your decision to quit! Also very proud of your attitude to win over this addiction!! Never ever give up trying. Smoking is an addiction, which sucks the life out of us and not to mention the money. Who can afford $12+ a pack anymore? Not many. I am sure most people are in the same boat as you're. If you ask the local convenience shop operators, they will tell you that they cannot be in business without selling lotto (gambling) and smokes (addiction), through both which our governments collect money from us. Another tax grab at the expense of our health and mental well being. If I continued to be quit for another 30 years I will save over $60k+, which is a lot of money. :)

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/16/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 366
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 3,660
Amount Saved: $2,196.00
Life Gained:
Days: 53 Hrs: 20 Mins: 42 Seconds: 34

lithan44Oct 17, 2017 @ 8:06 AM
Posts: 2343
Joined: Mar 27, 2006 (9:42 AM)

Age: 48
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Hi Ocean and welcome back, my Friend.  Be proud of the fact that you are back and planning your quit in a realistic and doable way.  I love your approach and openness in your struggles and expenses.  We are here to support and encourage you.  Keep reaching out.  Hugs. 

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/14/2010
Smoke-Free Days: 2621
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 26,210
Amount Saved: $13,105.00
Life Gained:
Days: 285 Hrs: 23 Mins: 34 Seconds: 25

Strength

OceanOct 17, 2017 @ 8:03 AM
Posts: 1182
Joined: Jan 26, 2010 (5:34 PM)

Age: 55
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Educator
Hobbies: Family, Reading, Music, Outdoors
My heart is touched by your enthusiasm and encouragement!  Yes, life is tough sometimes, but we all go through it nontheless.  So thanks for letting me plan, and wean myself off.  I think I'll get a confidence boost and encouragement by taking these smaller steps, instead of black and white thinking that I'll just put the whole thing off for a while.
 
Vix1976, I've just been catching up on your story this morning, and saw that you did the weaning off too, so I'm not alone!  Yay!  Smobered Up, what can I say?  I love ya girl!  We've been on and off for years and your one year (CONSECUTIVE) is so inspiring for me, I look up to you too!   Treepeo, nice to meet you!  I've seen your posts to to others these last couple of days and they resonate big time, keep on keeping on!  Newopportunity, I recognize your name and you're at 859 days, wow!  I sometimes get confused when I see such familiar old names until I go way back in the posts to jog my memory, which I don't have time to do now, but bless you!
 
And Emily and Jennifer, your advice and help is invaluable, thank you.
 
My timer thing is helping me avoid the clusters today.  I'll smoke 4 cigarettes within the first 11/2 hours of my day, and then afterwork I cluster smoke as well to catch up on my nic fix.  So this will help me avoid cluster smoking times which I always found incredibly hard times in previous quits. It also gives me a sense of "I did it!" which I really need to feel confident, lol.
 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/30/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -12
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -300
Amount Saved: $-177.12
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -131423

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

Vix1976Oct 16, 2017 @ 9:05 PM
Posts: 302
Joined: Aug 16, 2017 (5:52 PM)
Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
We’re here for you ocean though the good, bad and in between. Good for you that you’re making a plan regardless of all the challenges you’re facing. I’m not sure that I would be so strong. Like our friend smobered said be kind to yourself as well.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 34
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 510
Amount Saved: $367.20
Life Gained:
Days: 3 Hrs: 3 Mins: 36 Seconds: 31

Smobered UpOct 16, 2017 @ 8:16 PM
Posts: 1574
Joined: Jul 03, 2010 (6:38 AM)

Age: 71
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: retired
Hobbies: Cottage in the summer, Florida in the winter, Photography, NOT SMOKING ☺
Hi Ocean,
 
Sorry about your dad.
 
I am happy to see that you have a plan.  Planning is the first important step to a successful outcome in any endeavour.  Treepeo is right.  Setting practical goals are paramount to your success.  You are kind to others, you must also be kind to yourself.  
 
Your fan and admirer and old quitter pal,
 
Smobered Up.
 
I am an addict aspiring to lifelong smobriety


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/15/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 367
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 9,175
Amount Saved: $4,128.75
Life Gained:
Days: 45 Hrs: 13 Mins: 26 Seconds: 22

The buck stops HERE!

TreepeoOct 16, 2017 @ 6:29 PM
Posts: 768
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Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Ocean,
 
I am so sorry to hear about your father. It's never easy when someone we love becomes ill.  
 
Given all the stress you are under, I think it is really commendable that you contacted SHO and developed a quit plan that will work for you. It sounds like you came up with a great plan.  
 
I hope that life gets a bit easier for you soon.  Just take it one day at a time. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 291
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,275
Amount Saved: $873.00
Life Gained:
Days: 40 Hrs: 4 Mins: 27 Seconds: 21

Emily, Quit CoachOct 16, 2017 @ 3:50 PM
Posts: 154
Joined: Jun 18, 2015 (1:33 PM)
Hi Ocean,

I'm sorry to hear about your father. It can be very challenging to make changes to your smoking while you have personal challenges going on as well. I'm happy to hear that you have good support from your doctor and called in to speak with a Quit Coach as well. 

It sounds like you have worked out a plan that will allow you to make changes to your smoking in preparation for a quit. Like your quote says "by the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!". 

Let us know how things are going for you.
Emily 

Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

OceanOct 16, 2017 @ 3:34 PM
Posts: 1182
Joined: Jan 26, 2010 (5:34 PM)

Age: 55
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Educator
Hobbies: Family, Reading, Music, Outdoors
Update:  I just had a great chat with a quit coach.  My new plan will be to reduce 5 cigarettes.  Four days later to reduce another 5, etc... so that in 2 weeks I'll be down to 15 cigarettes.  It's a short term goal that allows me to reduce and participate in the program while not actually quit.  Another thing is avoiding cluster smoking, before work, after work by setting a one hour timer betwen cigarettes.  I'm confident I can complete these strategies, an easy does it approach up to my quit date.
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/30/2017
Smoke-Free Days: -13
Cigarettes Not Smoked: -325
Amount Saved: $-191.88
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 0 Mins: 0 Seconds: -139273

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

OceanOct 16, 2017 @ 2:02 PM
Posts: 1182
Joined: Jan 26, 2010 (5:34 PM)

Age: 55
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Educator
Hobbies: Family, Reading, Music, Outdoors
Hello Everyone and a shout out to Sunshine too!  I got some advice from my Doctor today at my annual physical (booked months ago).  Her concern about me quitting smoking is that it might not be the best time right now as she's aware of some personal challenges I've been coping with.  I've made so many positive changes, and she's really impressed, so she's nervous that I might be taking on too much at this time.  I guess the big issue is that my dad is very sick, pallliative now.  So this is a lot of stress on top of other issues that I'm handling.  I doubt my dad will make it to Christmas.  So I've put in a call to Smokers Helpline, and they'll get back to me.  The truth is I can't afford to smoke.  Financial sress is really hard to deal with on top of everyday challenges.  My question then becomes, how can I continue onto this quit. decreasing, or whatnot so that come once Dad is gone, I can completely quit.  I don't want an either/or answer, but a firm quit plan that can accomodate the stress at the moment, and idea's of what that might look like.  Today I've been setting my timer for every hour or so between cigarettes so that I'll only smoke half a pack instead of all 25 while I work this out.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/16/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 0
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 0
Amount Saved: $0.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 2 Mins: 23 Seconds: 7

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

mdjsunshineOct 15, 2017 @ 2:49 PM
Posts: 2609
Joined: Oct 14, 2012 (3:04 PM)

Age: 61
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Filling my friends with love
Hobbies: Cooking, Guardening and helping other quit smoking
HELLO OCEAN IT IS WONDERFUL TO SEE YOU HERE ONCE AGAIN.  FIRST THING I WANT TO SAY TO YOU IS THAT YOU CAN DO THIS QUIT THINGY AND YOU KNOW IT SWEETIE.  I DON'T KNOW IF YOU EVER READ MY STORY UNDER SUCCESS STORIES BUT I WILL GIVE YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE THE READERS DIGEST CONDENSED VERSION.  GO BACK 5 YEARS WHEN I WAS SMOKING UP TO 4 PACKS A DAY - DIDN'T HAVE FOOD MONEY, PRESCRIPTION WERE NOT BOUGHT, NO GAS FOR THE VAN BUT WEE ALWAYS SEEMED TO HAVE THE MONEY FOR CIGARETTES.  I WAS AT THE POINT WHERE I ACTUALLY THOUGHT AND BELIEVED THAT I COULD NOT PERFORM ANY FUNCTION WITHOUT A CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH.  SOUND DUMB - WELL I CAN NOW SAY YA PRETTY MUCH DUMB.  ENTER THE EVENING 5 YEARS AGO THAT I SAT THAT EVENING READING A STORY ON MY LAPTOP AND SMOKED MY CIGARETTES.  WHEN  THE STORY WAS DONE I WAS TIRED SO WENT TO BED AND HAD A GOD NIGHT SLEEP.  GOT UP THE NEXT MORNING AND CAME TO THE KITCHEN AND PHIL AND I HAD OUR COFFEE BUT ONLY PHIL HAD A CIGARETTE.  I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT OF IT AT THE MOMENT AND I ALSO HAD NEVER EVER THOUGHT OF NOT SMOKING.  IT TOO PHIL 3 DAYS TO REALIZE I WAS NOT SMOKING BUT HE CONTINUED SMOKING.  SO WHAT DOES THIS ALL HAVE TO DO WITH YOU ???  WELL YOU WERE HERE WHEN I FIRST DISCOVERED SHO 2 DAYS AFTER I QUIT AND YOU AND ALL OF THE OTHERS HERE INCLUDING THE MODS HELPED ME TO DO THIS QUIT ONE DAY AT A TIME AND SOMETIMES ONE HOUR AT A TIME.  THE WAY I SEE IT IS WE ALL COME BY OUR QUITS IN OUR OWN WAY AND FOR ME MY QUIT WAS HEAVE SENT.  NOW OCEAN YOU NOW ME AND I AM NOT A CRAZY WOMAN BUT EVEN AFTER ALL THESE YEARS HAD IT NOT BEEN FOR ME READING THAT STORY (DEBORAH'S STORY) THAT NIGHT WHO KNOWS WHERE I WOULD BE RIGHT NOW BUT I AM HERE AND YOU ARE HERE AND IF I CAN HELP YOU OR ANYONE ELSE FOR THAT MATTER THEN I WOULD ONLY BE TOO PROUD TO HELP.  I HAVE HAD A FEW PEOPLE COME TO ME ASKING FOR HELP AND AM QUITE PROUD TO SAY THAT THEY TO THIS DAY ARE STILL SMOKE FREE.  I HOPE I DON'T SOUND LIKE I AM RAMBLING BUT I WANT YOU TO REMEMBER BACK THEN AND HOW YOU HELPED ME AND OTHERS AND NOW IT IS MY TURN TO HELP YOU AND OTHERS IF I CAN.  I HOPE AND PRAY THIS HELPS YOU.  REMEMBER TO COME READ AND POST IN HERE OFTEN.  DRINK THAT WATER - THE 4 D"S.  REMEMBER THE LETTERS NOPE AND KTQ.  REMEMBER THE CLEANING SPREES WHEN WE NEEDED SOMETHING TO OCCUPY OUT HANDS.  REMEMBER THAT WE ARE ALL HERE ON SHO FOR THE VERY SAME REASON AND ABOVE ALL REMEMBER - MAY THE SUN ALWAYS SHINE ON EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU MY DEAR SWEET FRIEND FROM YOUR SUNSHINE

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/13/2012
Smoke-Free Days: 1828
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 63,980
Amount Saved: $38,004.12
Life Gained:
Days: 240 Hrs: 2 Mins: 8 Seconds: 53

mdjsunshine

OceanOct 15, 2017 @ 1:49 PM
Posts: 1182
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Age: 55
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Educator
Hobbies: Family, Reading, Music, Outdoors
Hello and thank you!  Aren't you a positive and supportive group.  I used to be known as the Wile E. Coyote once, always trying to quit and then coming back for more punishment when I failed.  I've got to chuck that mentality out the window, because it shames me, and I just got to suck it up and try again.
 
I really don't know if I'll succeed even a day,so I'll say that to get it out of the way!  I was planning to quit today, but was caught off guard this morning while doing my Sunday thing and having  a coffee.  I'm ashamed to admit that I smoked the leftover butts from my ashtray, then scrounged around for loose change and ran out to the corner store for a pack.
 
 I was unprepared and feeling that 'Oh my God, what do I do' panic of the unprepared, lol!  And then I conned myslef into thinking, OK, I'll just smoke 5.  Well, that doesn't work for me, because sitting here, I have 20 left, and I'm already rationalizing my way out.  I'll probably smoke all afternoon, then throw them away, I hope.  My magical thinking is telling me that if I stop mid-day, it'll be easier.  I'm afraid my Magical Thinking is my worst enemy.
 
But on the bright side, I realized that on Tuesday, I'll have to get up, take the dog out for a run immediately, then shower, and leave promptly for work.  No lingering!  It sort of takes 45 minutes of reading the news, chilling, out of the picture.  I have to tell myself that I'll be able to chill again some day, but not now.  I have to do this while not feeling deprived, crazy, isn't it?
 
And, I'm off work tomorrow for my annual, physical.   So, I'll have to come up with a list of things to do in the afternoon.  It helps with a bit of planning, so I'll take care of this task this afternoon...
 
And self confidence.  I'll have none of it unless I get through some time without smoking.  Hmmmmmm...
My first day and not off to a good start.  So one more, and then I'll just work through the cravings for the rest of the day, to get that confidence thing going! 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/16/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 0
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 0
Amount Saved: $0.00
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 2 Mins: 21 Seconds: 22

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!

Jennifer, Quit CoachOct 14, 2017 @ 9:38 PM
Posts: 3946
Joined: Dec 29, 2010 (8:18 PM)
Good Evening Ocean,

Great to see you back here on SHO! You are doing a really important thing by quitting, not only for your budget but also for you! Know we are with you all the way, you've always done an awesome job at both using the support here on SHO and being a support to others, we're really glad you've come by and shared your new quit.

Love the shift in thinking already!


Jennifer, Moderator

Smokers' Helpline Online Support Team

Smobered UpOct 14, 2017 @ 7:54 PM
Posts: 1574
Joined: Jul 03, 2010 (6:38 AM)

Age: 71
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: retired
Hobbies: Cottage in the summer, Florida in the winter, Photography, NOT SMOKING ☺
Hi Ocean!
So nice to see you again.  I just recently returned to the threads, too. 
I can say with absolute certainty, that I know how you feel.  It has taken me 7 years to finally assemble 364 consecutive smoke free days.  Like yourself, I had quit multiple times only to relapse multiple times.  Truth is, I still feel vulnerable, but the big difference is in my acceptance that I will always be courted by my addiction.  We are all in various stages of susceptibility but for the first time I feel confident in my own fortitude to dismiss those fleeting moments of longing as I would any other pesky memory.  It sounds as though you have come to a similar epiphany and like myself, you already know that these first few weeks will be very challenging.  The good news is, we've had lots of practice so this is the time to finalize the deal that we've made with ourselves. 
Looking forward to sharing your journey.   It will be like old times, only better, because we are both on our final and successful attempt.  Be kind to yourself once you start.  I have the utmost respect for cold turkey quitters.
 
Your quitter pal
Smobered Up.
 
I am an addict aspiring to lifelong smobriety. 
 
P. S.  I had trouble adjusting my quit meter when I came back.....finally, I asked the mods to help me out.  They fixed it!  


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/15/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 364
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 9,100
Amount Saved: $4,095.00
Life Gained:
Days: 45 Hrs: 7 Mins: 26 Seconds: 9

The buck stops HERE!

NewoportunityOct 14, 2017 @ 6:45 PM
Posts: 1212
Joined: Jun 08, 2015 (5:13 PM)

Age: 47
Gender: Male
Hi Ocean
 
I remember you! Hang in, your are not the only one who quit and sleep and go back.
 
You know what is to be Non Smoker and how well it feel.
 
Be strong and say No!


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 6/8/2015
Smoke-Free Days: 859
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 51,540
Amount Saved: $23,193.00
Life Gained:
Days: 138 Hrs: 10 Mins: 57 Seconds: 35

EVERY DAY IS A TRY, NEVER GIVE UP

TreepeoOct 14, 2017 @ 6:21 PM
Posts: 768
Joined: Dec 27, 2016 (2:00 AM)
Age: 56
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Legal Assistant
Hobbies: reading, video games
Hi Ocean,
 
I can't believe how much money you are spending per month on smoking.  No wonder you are so stressed out.  Honestly, can this addiction take any more from us?  It not only ruins our health, but it bankrupts us as well.  And for what?  So we can poison ourselves?   And yet time and again, we light up, telling ourselves we are "enjoying" it.  What a crock.
 
You have quit before, so you know it is going to be tough going in the beginning.  But after that, it is just a matter of holding on to your quit, and sticking to the Not One Puff Ever rule.  And I have found that that gets easier to do day by day.
 
Good luck Ocean, and remember that you really can do this.  And we are all here to help.  Be stronger than your addiction.  You are worth it. 


My Milage:

My Quit Date: 12/29/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 289
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,225
Amount Saved: $867.00
Life Gained:
Days: 39 Hrs: 21 Mins: 49 Seconds: 49

Vix1976Oct 14, 2017 @ 4:39 PM
Posts: 302
Joined: Aug 16, 2017 (5:52 PM)
Age: 41
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Hi ocean, you can do this. Read up on all the tips and tricks and work on your program today. Remember how much you need this. smoking doesn’t help anxiety, it makes it worse and yes having more money each month will cut way down on your anxiety. The initial suck of quitting is short term pain for long term gain. Post lots, read up, get help when you need and call the SHO hotline when you need extra help!!! Reset those stats so we can help celebrate all your milestones with you that will be coming in the future! You can do this!! And there are tons of people here to help!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2017
Smoke-Free Days: 31
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 465
Amount Saved: $334.80
Life Gained:
Days: 2 Hrs: 22 Mins: 45 Seconds: 24

OceanOct 14, 2017 @ 4:21 PM
Posts: 1182
Joined: Jan 26, 2010 (5:34 PM)

Age: 55
Gender: Female
Country: Canada
Occupation: Educator
Hobbies: Family, Reading, Music, Outdoors
Well, I'm back again.  Reluctantly, because I find quitting and relapsing so incredibly stressful that I'm terrified of even doing a Day One!  But I had an expense in June that is crippling my bi-weekly budget and it's so stressful making ends meet and paying off debt when I'm spending $400.00 a month smoking.  You know all the sayings of twelve step programs when you quit drinking or drugging?Well, smoking is not the solution.  I'll have to try the steps here, with smoking.  I have a few cigarettes left and $7.00 till payday next week.  I can't afford to borrow because I can't afford more debt.  So I have every reason to stop smoking.  If I do, my life will be so much less stressed financially and that in turn will ease my mind and give me comfort.  See, I've shifted my thinking.  I used to say quitting smoking will stress my mind and cause me discomfort.  It will, of course, but its the financial burdom which I can no longer cope with more.  And the extra $400. a month will make a huge difference in solving my daily stress; moreso than short-term cravings and withdrawal. So now the solution is trying to navigate my life while breaking the habit and the addiction.  And in finding pleasant options that work as stress-busters.  Here I am on the ride, lets let the bumps to come be surmountable.  I guess tonight is when I start my withdrawal with no aids to help, so cold-turkey it is to start.  Cheerio, Ocean

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 10/20/2016
Smoke-Free Days: 359
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 8,975
Amount Saved: $5,298.84
Life Gained:
Days: 47 Hrs: 14 Mins: 33 Seconds: 5

By the yard it's hard...by the inch it's a cinch!